Uneasiness and Tangents

Did I even spell that title correctly? Hmm…anyway. I’m all alone with my thoughts; for the past few hours. Jorge is working (yes, this late) and the kids aren’t here this weekend 🙁 but they’d probably be asleep by now anyway if they were. Briana, Mia, Joyce and the kids were here earlier, but they’ve since gone home 🙁 . My dinner ended up being an iced coffee from Starbucks, where I picked up a gift card earlier.

Anyway, we caught up and talked and I learned some annoying shit that’s happened recently, but it’s not my place to say anything about it. And I hate it. Because I want to scream and tell people off and just be a total bitch about these things I have no control over. The anger’s been festering in my gut for the past few hours that I feel nauseous and hungry all at the same time. I was going to get up and make an anger-filled chocolate mug cake, but I felt too lazy to. And then I thought I’d get a Carb Smart ice cream pop thing but that also required getting up from this chair and nah. But I also don’t feel hungry, which is progress for me in hindsight, since I would have devoured an entire box of Carb Smart in the past. Yay me.

I tried finishing my Calaca wreath but wasn’t into it. I started laundry, but haven’t put it in the dryer yet. I started browsing though job postings since I received an e-mail and I have A.D.D. but everything sucks. Started looking for that stupid book I need to study because my brain has forgotten everything it learned all these years (HOW was I valedictorian and salutatorian, HOW??), but I got distracted again and said, “Hmm, I haven’t blogged in a while…” 🙄

Can you believe I feel guilty for feeling angry? That’s what’s wrong with me: I can never just be MAD. I feel guilty and ungrateful for being angry. I had a great day of shopping (that’s what happens when Jorge leaves me alone too long) and not even that helped. Well, it did for a little bit, heh.

I used up coupons left and right and managed to find a black dress at Old Navy for our Annual Banquet. It was comfy and I liked it at the store, but in no way, shape, or form is it “cocktail attire”. Then I saw this other dress online just a while ago, but I’m sure it’s about $75 and I’m NOT paying that for a dress I’ll wear one time.

I also finally found my mustard-colored cardigan. I was really hoping to find one at Goodwill, or eBay, but no luck. So I paid $10 for a legit new one 😆 . Now I need to fix that blouse with the foxes on it that I absolutely had to have a mustard-colored cardigan for. I bought it in medium in March and now it’s huge. I literally wore it once. One of the negatives of dropping 2 sizes 😕 .

Which is why I’m scouring Goodwill and clearance racks for pants. All of my jeans, shorts and work pants are cinched at the waist with safety pins since losing weight, and it looks pretty bad because it clumps under my blouses. I got lucky last month when I found 2 red pants (one brand-new from Old Navy and brand-new Calvin Klein ones, both with tags). This month I found a denim jacket (in extra small, WHAT), 2 dresses (one from Gap with tags) and a cute sweater from Aeropostale. I think I spent $10 or less on all that!

Here’s one of the dresses and the jacket:

(Yes, my cats are indeed enormous!)

I realized today as Mom and I walked to the car from visiting Gramma that my thighs 100% don’t rub when I walk in a dress anymore! That’s a darn non-scale victory in itself! Oh! And I tried on pants at Kohl’s (I had Kohl’s cash, woo!), and I fit into a SIZE. 3. THREE. Tres. I haven’t been size 3 since I was 17!!! And I have a post all about my 5-month Keto experience and progress, but obviously I never finished it, but I seriously weigh the lowest as an adult, EVER. I seriously love Keto, no joke.

Ok. I should go check on the darn laundry. Or pay bills online. Or you know, wash my face, brush my teeth and go to bed? Meh.

Low-Carb Chocolate Mug Cake With Chocolate Cream Cheese Frosting

I searched all over the place for a great, chocolatey low-carb, Keto-friendly mug cake recipe that didn’t taste like cardboard, and after trying tons of recipes on Pinterest I decided I probably had to make my own. So, after a lot of trials and errors (a lot. And I ate them, because I don’t like wasting ingredients 😳 !), I want to say I created a pretty darn good recipe! (And this is coming from a former sugar-obsessed, carb-aholic! So I know my desserts!) Without further ado, here’s my Low-Carb Chocolate Mug Cake With Chocolate Cream Cheese Icing.

For the Cake, You’ll Need:

A round mug, perhaps about 4 inches in diameter
2 tbls butter
2 tbls almond flour
1 tbls coconut flour
1/2 tsp baking powder
1 pinch or 2 twists of freshed cracked sea salt (or Pink Himalayan Salt)
1 tbs vanilla extract
2 tsps heavy whipping cream
1 tbls Swerve sweetener
1 tbls Hershey’s Cocoa 100% Cacao Unsweetened Powder
1 tbls Lilly’s Dark Chocolate Chips, 55% Cocoa Stevia Sweetened
1 egg

For the Frosting, You’ll Need:

1 heaping tbls cream cheese
2 tsp Hershey’s Cocoa 100% Cacao Unsweetened Powder
1/2 tsp Swerve sweetener

Directions for Cake:

Melt your pat of butter in your round mug for 30 seconds (you can probably use any mug, but I find the rounder it is, the more evenly it bakes).

Mix your almond flour, coconut flour, baking powder and sea salt into your butter. Then add your vanilla extract, heavy whipping cream, Swerve, Hershey’s Cocoa Powder and your Lilly’s Chocolate Chips. 

I used granulated Swerve; couldn’t find powdered, but it worked out perfectly!

In my experience, Swerve is the way to go with sweeteners. I’ve tried Stevia and Pure and they were just too bitter.

Stir until well combined, scraping the sides of your mug.In a separate bowl, whisk your egg, then stir it into your mug with your cake mixture until well-mixed, to avoid any white, eggy clumps.

Once it’s all nicely mixed, microwave for 90-100 seconds, depending on your microwave. I’d start with 90 seconds. Mine came out a little soft on one side, like a brownie consistency, but I love my cakes like that so it was perfect for me. Pop it in for 5-10 seconds at a time if you like a firmer cake. Once it’s done, flip your mug onto a plate or cutting board. A few good taps will pop it right out 🙂 .

Directions for Frosting:

In a bowl, mix your cream cheese, Hershey’s Cocoa Powder and Swerve until well-combined.

It took a little bit of elbow-grease to get it all mixed, but when it was done it was perfect. 

Mixing!

My girls said it was good, but needed to be chocolate-ier; I like to taste the cream cheese so it was good enough for me, but you can add more cocoa if you need to.

Those Lilly’s chips are like little bursts of happiness!

Wait for the cake to cool just a bit and carefully spread your frosting on your cake. As you can see, I was too much in a rush to wait 😆 !!

Please let me know if you try it out in the comments and if it needs any adjustments!!