Category: Friendship

Nostalgia…and Other Ramblings

I’m doing my searches for my Netbux account and searched for hits of 1997. When I went to pick Eenan up today I was listening to a CD Noelia had in the CD player and a bunch of the songs on it remind me of when Mario and I met and when we were first together. It was so nice, overcast and fresh today (wish it was always like this!) and I was sitting in the driver’s seat, with a sleeping Jaylen in the passenger seat (I was parked) and I was running my fingers through his hair and just reminiscing. It’s funny how songs can just take you back. We’ve been through a lot *wipes tear*. 1996 songs remind me of my friends. I miss everyone. Damn bitches ! I think I saw Jessica (or it could have been her mom) when we passed by her Grandma’s house on Saturday. I almost wanted to call but pfft. What for? Anyway, I plan on downloading every single “Top 40” from 1994-1999. Man, I feel…old!

As for the homefront…Mom’s sick again. She isn’t taking her diabetes medication because she ran out (yet Aunt Nora called me and told me Mom DID have a refil for her meds from FEBRUARY!) and her eye either has a boil or whatever it is that she gets when her diabetes is out of control and is basically swollen shut. I’m so scared for her. I wish her and John didn’t have to have it so…hard. I wish we could just win the lottery and buy all this land and just all (my in-laws, Mom, Gramma and John, and us) just live near eachother. I wish Mom didn’t have to work anymore . I just feel so bad for her all the time.

Eenan got yet another G.P.A.R. for not doing his work at school. Took him almost an hour to do 1-digit addition, when he can zoom through 3-digit addition in no time. He was distracted. I wish it wasn’t so hard for him to concentrate. I’m afraid to even say it but, I think he may have signs of ADD . He’s so incredibly smart…but he’s a chatterbox and loves to play around and it gets him in trouble. Just like his father LOL.

Jorge gets here tomorrow evening and I didn’t even come close to “cleaning up”. I spent most of MY “chore time” cleaning up the bedroom since the boys had toys strewn everywhere. I re-arranged their toy boxes but who am I kidding…it’s still a disaster in there!

Going to go and listen to my songs before I go to bed. I actually found the songs that Eenan sang at his graduation! I’ll be uploading them for your listening pleasure sometime tomorrow (if I get time *crosses fingers*) . Goodnight!

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I Need Something TO DO!

I’m so bored *yawn*. I thankfully don’t have chores to do (just need to straighten up a bit and wash dishes) and am just bored. I tried sorting through my inbox and replying to e-mails but my ADD kicked in and I just started wandering off and now I’m just bored. Ah yes, the blinking lights on my modem are telling me fkn’ Roadrunner’s messing up again. Thanks, buttholes!

Anyway, it’s Friday and we’re probably not doing a damn thing. I’ve been wanting to go somewhere…maybe play pool or even have some drinks somewhere. We haven’t done that since…November! Since Mario’s birthday to be exact. Jesus!

Mario had yesterday off so we just lounged around. In the afternoon we met Mary at JCPenny since she was borrowing our card to buy a dress and some jeans for Noelia. We picked up a Caramel Frappuccino from Starbucks while we waited (mmm…I want another ). I got another pair of jeans…since I only have TWO and I’m tired of having to wash them all the time . Now, I need to get more shorts. Those I have enough of though .

Anyway, we went to see Gramma after that, finally. I hadn’t seen her in about 4 weeks already . She was eating dinner when we arrived. She’s feeding herself now–has been for about a month, Mom said. I didn’t know that, I’m so happy for her!

While Jaylen and I were chatting with her I saw this girl that looked really familiar. I had seen her before, when Gramma had just started living there and for the longest time I thought she was this girl I used to work with at Old Navy. To make a long story short, we don’t like eachother because I reported her friend and he got fired. She later quit because her ass was apparently stealing shit, too. Anyway, the girl went in yesterday and was checking Gramma’s, er, roomate’s diabetes and we sort of smiled at eachother when she walked in. I found it strange, since that other girl DOES NOT like me and definitely wouldn’t have smiled. She was still outside checking her cart when Jaylen and I walked out the door and we glanced at eachother–and then it hit me. It wasn’t the girl I worked with, it was my friend Letty from Middle School . She must have thought I was so rude for not saying hi or anything! I seriously thought she was that other chick though. I hope I see her again sometime and say hi and appologize. I asked Mom if she new if a nurse named Letty worked there when I spoke to her yesterday, but she says she’s ‘never heard of a Letty’. I’m more than positive it’s her though. I never knew she wanted to be a nurse! And she probably didn’t think I’d ever be a young mom, either LOL.

We went to get a few groceries after we saw Gramma and Mario made THE BEST sandwiches (with bolios, or rolls) I’ve had in the longest time. Or maybe it’s just because it tastes so much better when someone else does the cooking/preparing ?

Eenan will be graduating from Kinder soon *tear*. After we picked him up from school yesterday, we went to the carwash. On the way there, he starts singing, “The wo-orld is a raaaainbowww! Filled with many co-olors! There’s yellow, black and white and brown…” and I’m not kidding you, I started BAWLING. I remember that song from MY Kinder graduation! I don’t know how I’m going to do it when he’s actually up on stage wearing his little gown and singing…I’m going to be a wreck . Mario immediately shot a look at me when Eenan started singing…he KNEW I was already crying like a baby LOL.

Jaylen’s been a crazy little guy. He comes up with the funniest things–things you wouldn’t expect a 3 year old to say (OMG he’s already 3!!!). A few nights ago, Mario went to the bedroom and I got up from the couch where I was watching TV with Jaylen and followed Mario and we just cuddled on the bed. Jaylen runs over there and yells, “HEY! You know better than that!” I don’t know if he meant we knew better than leaving him alone, or knew better than cuddling without him LOL. I think it may have been the latter, as he quickly jumped on the bed and stuck himself between us. Silly thing .

Well, I guess I won’t be bored in a few minutes. I gotta get dinner ready…I’m making Chalupas tonight! But wait, I didn’t go and get the darn tortillas from the store…grr. Then I gotta make Mario’s lunch for tomorrow. Meat loaf, mashed potatoes and corn it is!

P.S. Thank you to all who commented yesterday . I enjoyed hearing your opinions on the subject .

P.P.S. New layout at Myspace. I’m thinking I may use it for Pixydust, too. Love the colors. I just need to think of a main image. I think I may want yet another Hello Kitty skin . Don’t hurt me!

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Ay, Dios Mio

*dusts off blog*

First, Happy (belated) Birthday to Jessica! And my new Myspace username is much easier: myspace.com/yajairav. I wanted Yajaira, or Yaya, but those were taken. That’s the most creative thing I could come up with LOL. Add me if you’d like, and I’ll add you back .

Once again, I’ve gone days without updating. Things are hectic as always and it doesn’t help that I caught Mary and Noelia’s throat infection/cold. The first day was hell…couldn’t swallow or talk, lost my voice and then yesterday I had this annoying tickling, prickly feeling at the back of my throat that made me cough everytime I began to talk. I’m taking Cefzil…500mg. Was supposed to be taking 1 pill in the morning and 1 at night, but the one I took at night the first day made me horribly naseous…I couldn’t sleep. Today I’ve got the uncontrollably runny nose .

We took the boys to the doctor Tuesday or Wednesday of last week. We actually took them to another doctor, a night clinic, since their doctor’s office was already closed. They were no help whatsoever. They prescribed Motrin and cough medicine, which is what I was already giving them at home, thankyouverymuch. Eenan was falling asleep in class because the cough medicine made him really drowsy. I took him off the medicine and kept him on Triaminic and he’s doing much better now. So’s Jaylen, except he’s been getting knee aches every night (growing pains?) and wakes me up at least 5 times to ask for medicine, a warm rice sock, something to drink, or to “play with my hair”. (I really need to wean him off of that bad, bad habit!) Needless to say, the past week I’ve been sleepy and tired all day. I’ve been trying not to nap, since it only makes me feel worse .

While eating dinner on Friday night after Mario got home from work, he tells me Annie, an old friend of Mario’s who I highly dislike and who used to be a stripper, filled out an application where Mario works. He assumes she won’t get hired since they just hired somebody. He couldn’t avoid her since she was at the entrance and he had to pass through there, so he said hi and she updated him on her life. The first thing she said was, “I’m not with [insert ex’s name here] anymore”. When he told me I was thinking, “Okay, why is she telling Mario?”. Since I’m a bitch and all, I asked Mario, “Wow…why’s she applying there, I wonder? What happened to her glamorous job as an ‘exotic dancer’?” I will throw a fit if that woman ends up working there. I don’t trust her skanky ass for shit. Doesn’t help that I’m not too fond of her dear sister either, who just so happened to be one of Mario’s best friends when he was in 10th grade and who also ended up stripping, though I don’t know WHY she’d allow other people to see her naked *shudder*. The horror! But anyway, I found it kinda weird that I’d been thinking about her earlier that day and had no idea why. That must have been it. I’m psychic .

We went to Jorge and Maggie’s that night to bar-be-cue. Mario had gone by once last week to have a few beers with Jorge…he hadn’t been going over there at all, which was really surprising. Hiram and Jorge have been acting weird since we went to Albert’s birthday party. Even while we were there that night I noticed Hiram was being sort of distant and even sort of…secretive? He said something to Jorge like, “Remember what I was telling you earlier? I don’t know if you want me to say anything or not.” I thought it was really “elementary school” and I felt like saying something sarcastic, but I shut my mouth. We all still talked and laughed like we usually do, but there was this awkwardness lingering.

On Saturday we went to Reynosa (Mexico) since Yazmin needed her bottom braces done and to pick up the plaster Ninja Turtle centerpieces and some candies. We went to get the Turtles while Yazmin was at the dentist with Yadira and the darn people didn’t even have them done! Mary had ordered them exactly a month in advance and they weren’t finished. They wanted us to come back next week and Mary told them that no, we needed them that day which was the whole reason she ordered them early. Next week is the party and we would not have time to go back. I notice the man was barely painting them. He had them painted mostly green already and I told Mary maybe it’s best if we just take them that way and paint the details (like their bandanas, arm and leg bands) ourselves since he’s probably also going to use the spray paint and since he was doing them in a hurry, he was most likely going to make a mess. So we brought them that way and have been painting them little by little. Tommy, Yadira, and the girls have all helped and so have Eenan and Jaylen. Here’s a picture. The one on the left is the first one we bought and decided we didn’t like the paint job and the one on the right is one of the many we’ve painted (there’s 14, and we still have a few details, like the eyes, to paint and touching up to do.)

We still have to order the cake, send out more invitations, buy the goodie bags and party favors AND his birthday present. *whew*

The boys were terrible at the candy store. They weren’t asking for everything they saw…they were either not moving (Eenan decided to plop himself on a box and refused to budge) or running around (Jaylen was running like a psycho all over the store). I was furious, not to mention embarrassed, by the time we were done there. What I’d give to have a remote control that would make them obey me at the push of a button .

As for Mom’s appointment last week, everything went well, thank goodness. They can’t figure out why she’s seeing blurry so they prescribed new glasses and she’ll go back in 2-3 months for another check up. I hope it’s just that she needed new glasses *crosses fingers*.

I haven’t seen Gramma in 2 weeks. I hate when this happens. I, of course, have asked Mario on his days off to take me to see her but his excuse is it’s his only day off and he wants to rest. Phooey. I’d take the car and go over there myself…what makes me nervous is that I’ve never driven over there and traffic is super busy. But we’ll see. I’m turning 23 on Thursday and I swear, I WILL be getting my damn license this year. With Mario’s help or not.

Speaking of birthday, it feels like it’s not even going to be my birthday yet. We’re beyond broke, so I don’t even know when we’ll be getting together (like the family usually does when there’s a birthday). It just feels odd. I can’t believe we’re this broke. Sure we indulged a little bit last week, but Jesus, we haven’t had to pinch pennies before the next paycheck comes in months. It sucks. Mario also wants to start sending double payments for the Sentra to pay it off already since we only owe $4,000 on it now and then he wants to get a new car. Blah. We can never just NOT have a huge payment to make for a few months.

I had an appointment to go to with Jaylen yesterday and I saw Melissa, an old friend from my 10th grade year of high school. She had a newborn baby with her and I could tell she’d just had a baby because she looked so uncomfortable and tired. I felt like saying hi, but since we sort of had a falling out at the end of that year, I didn’t say anything. It’s too bad that it happened, but oh well. Don’t need those kinds of friends anyway I suppose. It just sucks that MOST of the friends I’ve had in real life have somehow screwed me over or done something to make me lose trust in them. Don’t want to get into that again, so I’ll just stop.

I guess I’ll get back to painting those Turtles.

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