As my luck would have it, I finally get a chance to sit at the computer and check my Myspace and it takes a crap while it’s loading and dies. John can be on it all day. I get on, and it breaks.

I’m so tired of this math class. It’s not even “hard” math–it’s basic math. Like right now, we’re adding, subtracting, multiplying and dividing fractions and that alone is killing me. I’ve been out of high school for 7 years so I’ve basically forgotten everything. I’ve never felt so stupid in a class in my life. I’m just praying my grades don’t plunge my GPA :(. I’ve kept it at 4.0 this whole damn time–all I need is MATH to fuck it up.

I really hate math.

It’s not so much that I don’t know how solve the problems, because once I learn how to do it I can do it. But doing the hundreds of problems that we have to do makes me want to hyperventilate. Just seeing the numbers makes me get heart palpitations–seriously. I hate feeling like I’m in a rush, and this class makes me feel that way. Grr!

Two good things that happened today:

1st good thing: I paid off the final $123 of my tuition balance. Yeah, baby! I’m free from school fees for 6 months. I really hope I have a job in 6 months. Wondering about not finding a good job or getting one that pays too little worries me. Mayra, Lucy and I were talking about that today–when we’ll start working. Mayra’s going to take May off and then look for work. I think I’m going to do the same. Hopefully Mario can take his paid vacation time and we can at least enjoy our time together with the boys even though we don’t go anywhere. I just don’t want to get comfortable being at home again and then get lazy. But nah, I don’t see that happening. The reason I jumped into going to school was because I was tired of just being at home!

2nd good thing: Mayra brought cake! We were going to celebrate my birthday, but she had an errand to run so she just gave me the whole cake. Yum!

Okay, going to try this Myspace thing again.