Strange Feelings

Please, please everyone, take some time to pray for Becca and her new baby daughter, Addie. I can’t even begin to imagine what she and her family must be going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with them. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about them all day .

I’ve had this strange feeling of…guilt? concern? I’m really not sure what, but I’ve been feeling weird all day. I’ve felt a bit lethargic the past few days and I don’t even know why. I don’t feel sick. I didn’t even go to Annie’s sister’s wedding because I’ve just felt drained of all my energy (Mario says sleeping only 6 hours a night is quickly catching up with me). It didn’t help that the boys have just been in foul moods today either. They’re a bit better now, but goodness they won’t stop fighting!

I also spoke to Mom and she sounded so sad. Her situation would be so much easier if she would just speak up for herself. She needs to understand that I can’t do everything for her all the time, as much as I’d like to. I just hope everything falls into place for her, for us. I don’t know.

I had a dream that I was pregnant last night. There could be a few reasons I had that dream:

1) I was thinking of Yadira (who I don’t think I’ve mentioned is PREGNANT!! FINALLY!! I’m so happy for them !).
2) I was thinking of Becca and wondering if she’d had Addie yet.
3) Brushka is pregnant, and we’d been feeling her baby(ies?) move.
4) I’ve run out of birth control pills and don’t know when I’ll be going back to Mexico for some *bites nails*.

In the dream John had his hand on my HUGE belly and was trying to feel for a kick. Everytime he moved his hand, she’d kick. When he’d put it back, she’d stop. It was weird because some people were saying “he” yet I knew that it was a “she”. When I woke up, I had that same feeling I did when I found out I was pregnant with Eenan. There’s no possible way I can be pregnant right now though, because it’s uh, that time of the month . I wonder what it means?

I finally got my own cell phone and we got it for free! Mario added my number to his account and they gave us the phone + 1 month of free internet. I’ve been going crazy dowloading ring tones thanks to Joe and Jennifer, who are friends from school. I also got a program, Pix2Fone where we can make our own wallpapers. I made one with a picture of the kids, which pops up whenever a call from the house is made. I love it. It only allows JPG format for now, but it’s cool anyway.

Mario just bought a Samsung PDA off of Jorge, which he was going to trade with me for my Samsung V1660, but I think I’ll just keep my phone. The PDA looks too…big? I wonder when we’re gonna get our Blackberry from school? We’re supposed to get it after our first grading period, which we already had.

Blah. I feel like I’m getting a darn cough. Mario’s finally home so I’m gonna be lazy on the couch with him. I fall asleep so quickly on the couch, wrapped in his arms .

Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

on Monday, August 29th, Diana said:

Wow I read that girl’s journal, that’s sooo scary what’s happening with her baby. I hope she’ll be ok, I really think it will. 🙂