Category: Daily

Everything I Want

The flutter I feel in my heart when I see you walking down the walkway. Greeting you at the door with a smooch.

Talking about everything and anything and snacking on chips and dip.

How you sit on that chair and look at me as we have a conversation while I washed the dishes from the day.

You, walking around and fixing things that were never fixed before. And teaching me about it all as you do it.

Changing into something more comfortable.

Being so close to you, in that way that we’re close.

Watching you cook and know your way around my kitchen, like you belong here. Because you do.

Dancing with you in the kitchen to “Tennessee Whiskey” while you hold me close, stroke my back, and sing the lyrics in my ear. (I think I dreamed of that moment with you many moons ago.) You’ve always said that song would remind me of you. It always does.

Getting our food together and having a bed picnic. Oh, those wonderful bed picnics! (I never ate in my bed before you.)

Watching a show with you that you obviously got me hooked on.

Not paying attention to that show due to other important activities and having to rewind to understand what’s going on in the episode.

You teasing me and me getting extra emotional, as I tend to do. You, with your patience, pulling me close, and reminding me that you love me.

Eating ice cream and switching pints, then switching back again.

Not feeling insecure as we shower together, because—as hard as it is for me—I trust you and believe you when you tell me I’m beautiful.

The cold, fresh sheets and the way you extend your arm, letting me know my resting place is ready, and I lay on your shoulder—my favorite spot—while you snuggle me and hold me close. (“This is the good stuff,” you always say.) You place my legs just right as we tangle up for sleep.

Your little breaths, little snores and twitching as you fall slowly into sleep. And I lay there, in my favorite place, soaking it all in, hoping and praying time can stand still throughout the night for just a little bit more minutes with you.

Little snippets. Because I want to remember it all. In case one day it doesn’t happen again.

Spring Cold

Ughhhh. Of course I would get a cold on the weekend, the same day I get my period. Not only am I having body aches from the cold—I’m also having aches in my lower back and uterus. Thank God I didn’t get a fever because I’ve had my heating pads on 24/7. Can you imagine!?

This cough kept me awake so I went to sleep really late. Still obsessing over plant care and looking up how to not kill certain species. I was bold enough to ask in the garden center of Walmart if they’d mark down a Snow Queen Waffle Plant because she looked like she was on her last leg. So they left the poor thing to me at $1.50. I hope I didn’t just pay for her to die at my house 😆 .

Let’s rehab this beyotch

I guess I feel pretty good about just staying home and resting. I asked the kids not to ask for rides so I can get over this thing in peace.

I’m going to either watch “Workin’ Moms”, read or pass out. I already watered the plants that needed watering. Who am I kidding—I know damn well I’m going to go back into that Houseplant group I spend all my time in on Facebook and beg for tips on how to save my rooty Key Lime Pie succulent.

Current view

Keeping Busy

Working on my mental health lately while weaning off of one of my anti-depressants (Paroxetine) has been brutal. So what do I do when the mania hits? I find yet another hobby to obsess about. I present to you: some of my new plants.

The plants in the top two photos are from the 99 Cent Store, can you believe it?? So are the pots. Of course they were not $0.99 cents lol.
These babies were on clearance for $2 each at a nursery in Palmview. I trimmed down the snake plant’s dead leaves and it’s looking MUCH better.
“Mano de León” or “Brain Celosia”
From Walmart. The pots, too
From Home Depot. One of my wishlist items: Purple Passion

And of course I needed space for all these and my current ones, so my bestie installed these:

I am absolutely in love. And they definitely keep me busy and my mind from spiraling for sure!

I need to update this photo. I’ve replaced that terra cotta pot with a plastic one because my Golden Pothos was NOT having it. She’s much happier now 🙂 .

So welcome to my latest obsession. I have even bought a standing grow light. Wish me luck keeping all these alive!