Category: MLV

I’m just sitting here, waiting to find out whether I’m picking Eenan up from school, of if I should call Sonia to. I actually picked him up by myself yesterday. All the other times I’ve driven to pick him up Mario was with me. I did really well .

Ah, Mary just called. Noelia won’t make it back on time so Sonia will pick him up. I can’t wait till Mario can find the time (and save up money–but that’s both of us LOL), to fix the Prelude so I can keep the Sentra here. We’re hoping to pay off Mario’s student loan and put the rest of the income tax refund on the car payment. After that, we’ll only owe 9 months or so on the Sentra. I hope it works out. The faster we pay it off, the faster we can get a new, more reliable car. These two are always breaking down on us .

On Sunday, Mario and I removed the headliner from the car. It was looking like a parachute about a month ago when the fabric started coming off for some reason, so Mario ripped it off. Now we’re going to re-cover it. It was such a pain getting it out of the door…I was praying it wouldn’t break, because that thing is non-replaceable. I dislike doing stuff like that–where I have to help Mario with something car-related–because he starts getting all bossy. I kept having to remind him, “Be nice…I don’t have to help you with this.” I hope we can get it fixed and install it without breaking it.

We were waiting around for Jorge to call so we could go over and bar-be-cue, but he never did. At around 9pm, after putting the boys to bed, Mario lights up the grill and we just chilled out outside. It was so cold that night (around 43°)! After a while, Chris arrived and we chilled out with him. We didn’t eat till 11pm, and by that time I was sleepy and tired so I only had a chicken wing and a piece of fajita.

Yesterday, I mostly did laundry and cleaned up the bedroom. Jaylen’s becoming quite a good helper . We took a nap about an hour after Mario left for work. I must have been really out of it because when I woke up, my arm was all scratched up. It was probably dangling off the side and darn Choco Cat had a field day batting it around . She’s insane, that cat. We have to close the door to the bedroom or else she’s flying on top of the beds biting everyone if there’s the slightest movement. When I’m sitting here at the computer, she’ll jump on my lap, since the computer chair is “her” bed. Most of the time though, she stabs her claws in my legs and just hangs there since she didn’t get a good grip with her hind legs. It’s quite painful. I’ve had two chances to give her away, but I’m afraid she’ll maul the new owners. She won’t do anything to my kids most of the time, only because she’s terrified of them. But still, even though I’m her human scratching post, I love her crazy ass.

I need to buy more CD-r’s to get all the crap off of my computer. Mario got all annoyed that I had like, 20gigs of music and videos and cartoons on here LOL. He does too, but of course only my stuff counts . I have but one CD left!

Gotta get some exercise, finish laundry, and clean the litter box and the bunny’s pan (well, he’s not a bunny anymore, he’s HUGE!). Then I gotta do dishes. Will be back later.

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I’m so tired. The past few nights I’ve been staying up late again (except for last night) and it’s catching up with me with a vengeance. All day yesterday I refused to nap, and at around 6pm I was falling asleep every time I sat down. I actually got to get in bed early, at 11pm. Well, that’s early for me lately. I just have so much crap to do all the time. Now I’m here falling asleep again. I can’t nap–even though I really want to–or else this cycle will just continue. Blah.

I watched the finale of The Biggest Loser on NBC last night. I feel so inspired–as corny as that may sound–by that show. I was looking through the before and after pics and Kelly, Lisa, and Andrea look so nice and healthy now. I want to look nice and healthy too. I’m hating how weight is becoming a really big issue with me. I’ve always had bad self-esteem, but I think as I get older, it gets worse. I’m not like the people who went on the biggest loser–how most were overweight even as children. In fact, I was always too skinny, with no butt, with huge boobs for my body frame and height and I just felt awkward all the time. Now, I seem to have “filled out” more, but I’ve filled out more than I’d like. I’m not even overweight yet (and God I don’t want to be), but I’m close. I weigh 123 right now (I just weighed myself at Maggie’s on Friday night), and my BMI for my height and weight says I’m close to being overweight. I’m like 2 lbs. away. I’m only 4’11” tall…I should weigh from 95-100lbs. My goal is 105. I just want to get back in shape. But I’d like some support from my family. I’m tired of people rolling their eyes when I say I want to start eating better and exercising. I want support from Mario. Just this morning, after he ate breakfast, he came and sat on the computer. I’d been looking through The Biggest Loser before and after pics and I tell him about Kelly–who had biggish breasts and then lost a lot of weight there. I tell him I want to do that too. If I can lose “breast” without having to be cut up to have a reduction, then better for me. I ask him, since he used to be a fitness buff, what I should do to work-out my chest and he says, “I’ve already told you a thousand times before. I’m not repeating myself.” I tell him, “Well, I obviously forgot, which is why I’m asking you.” He just gets this attitude and I tell him to go screw himself. We’d been watching a movie, Harold and Kumar Go to Whitecastle to be exact, and there’s this scrawny blonde woman with almost non-existant boobs and he was um, aroused. I was greatly offended, for I’m not scrawny, blonde or flat-chested. I’m quite the opposite. I threw that in his face this morning–how he can be turned on by flat-chested skinny blondes (no offense to all you flat-chested skinny blondes out there–you bastards), yet I can’t talk about having a flat chest or highlighting my hair because he gets all defensive and raves about how “I’m beautiful the way I am and I don’t have to change anything”. Um, yeah, SURE. Last time I believe that. And to think I made him lasagna for lunch. That asshole .

I’m tired of feeling unattractive. I’m tired of wondering if my husband is checking out the skinny bitches. (And believe me, there’s plenty of skinny bitches where he works…a lot of the men where Mario works have wives, and a girlfriend they met there on the side.) I won’t let my depression get worse by feeling like shit about myself. I’m going to do this. I’m going to get back in shape. I need to buy rollerblades for myself and the kids. We have a long-ass drive way. It would be so awesome to blade again. I’M GOING TO DO THIS!

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…No, not THAT kind, you pervs . Don’t remember much from Thursday, except grocery shopping . Friday, was the usual during the day–took Eenan & John to school, Mario left to work, I was here with Jaylen. When Mario got home from work, we left to Jorge’s. Eenan was sleeping over at Mary’s, but we had Jaylen with us so we hoped for the best. I was in the mood for a little “me” time, so I was praying he’d behave. I drove there. When we were a block away, Mario whines, “We’re never gonna get therrrre!” I actually drive the speed limit, unlike him .

We chilled out and talked most of the night. Maggie made the best margaritas I have ever tasted in my life. She put a buttload of Tequila (is that what it is?) in there and you couldn’t even taste it. I hate tasting all the alcohol in drinks . John was with us and had 5 margaritas. He actually enjoyed himself, and I’m glad. It was a night of ragging on eachother–especially husbands against wives LOL. John got a bit of crap from Mario.

The next day, I woke up early and went with Mary, Noelia, and Sonia to watch White Noise. We met Yadira, Tommy and the girls there. The movie wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be, but I liked it anyway. Wasn’t as much of a disappointment as The Grudge, though. I especially liked it because I’ve always believed in that type of stuff, and for a while even considered recording here at home. When I saw the end though, I was kinda like, “Umm, maybe it’s not such a good idea.” LOL.

I would have had a much better time had this dumb woman with spider legs and her gorilla of a boyfriend not been kicking my seat the beginning half of the movie. I asked her twice to quit it and she looked straight ahead as if she didn’t hear/see me. I know she did since you can clearly see the people who are sitting beneath you. I felt her feet tucked up under my seat once, and moved myself foward and then back hard and I squashed her toes . I heard her heels scrape against the floor, frantically trying to get them out. That’s what she gets . When I finally had it, I yelled out, “Excuse me, CAN YOU STOP KICKING MY SEAT, PLEASE?!?” She finally acknowledged me and said, “I ain’t kickin’ yo seat!” I look at her gorilla boyfriend and say, “Well, ONE of you is kicking my seat. Quit it.” They weren’t kicking my seat, yet, after I yelled at them my seat was left alone. Idiots. Sonia later told me the man was the one doing most of the kicking, probably just to be an ass and didn’t expect me to say anything.

We went to Wal-Mart where Mary was getting groceries and I was buying all the house supplies and junk. Kitchen gadgets make me go crazy. I finally bought a little timer (and it helped me not procrastinate as much today!). The boys fear that thing. Everytime I ask them to clean up, or do something and they refuse, I whip the timer out and they get to work. I don’t know what it is, but it works!

We got home, got the boys ready and then took them to the dollar movies to watch Shark Tale again. They’ve been wanting to go to the movies but they’re not showing anything for kids at Tinseltown. They liked it. Jaylen actually stayed awake this time. I kind of liked it a bit more the 2nd time around, too. We picked up Burger King after the movie and went home. Mario was already here and he’d picked up Pizza Hut…darnit LOL.

I woke up at 5am the next morning because I heard one of the kids’ posessed toys laughing. It creeped me out. I had my comforter pulled up to my nose and started thinking of all these weird and terrifying things. Mostly about ghosts and EVP and how they could be flying over me and watching me that very moment. Stupid movie LOL.

I woke up at 7:30 and got ready to go to the big Flea Market/Garage Sale. Mary and I were going. We went super early, so people were still setting up. I didn’t find much for myself. I got the kids 5 books: “Slug”, “Brain Cell”, “Spider”, “Curious George Goes Camping”, and “My Little Dinosaur” for $.50 a piece. I also found a Wuzzles book: “Win One For Bumblelion” for Mario and my Wuzzles collection. The books are all brand-new! I also got Pokemon: The First Movie for the kids, which I’m wondering why I got it now since they have it on VCD . I found a Teddy Ruxpin VHS tape: The Treasure of Grundo, which I got for a $1 and when I got home, noticed it’s broken. I haven’t tried it out, but darnit, it better work. I got a Care Bears stoneware mug with Love-a-lot on it for $1. A Huckleberry Pie pillow doll, a big Pound Puppy (I had when I was little!), a Yum Yums bunny (that still has a bit of scent left!), and a complete roll of Strawberry Shortcake ribbon–which I thought was really cool. I don’t think many people have that in their collections . I also got Mary two teeny little bottles for her collection. She wants to go back and get more next time

Yeah, I forgot to take a picture of a few things .

We went to H-E-B to pick up a few things then went home. We got here and I ate, ironed, and started on some enchiladas. I had it set in my head I had enough time to get Mario’s stuff together and he had a bit of time to sleep more. He wakes up at 11:09am and says, “Look at the time! What time do I go into work?!” I say, “12” and it snaps. I was supposed to wake him up at 10:20, not 11:20. I’m a dumbass. I appologized and helped him get his stuff together. Poor thing was rushing around. I was so afraid he was going to keep throwing it in my face, which would cause me to start a fight but no, he was fine and didn’t blame me.

Big Mario got home a few hours later and asked if we’d like to go to Ricky’s ranch to ride the 4×4’s. I love riding that thing and so do the boys so we got ready and left. Big Mario took the boys for a spin and Mary and I chatted with Ricky. When Big Mario got back he asked if I wanted to take the boys for a ride and I said sure. Ricky tells me to go around the trail they made, so I did. Or so, I thought I did. I only took Jaylen with me, because Eenan was tired. I went around a little loop and then came to a fork in the road. I thought, “Oh crap”, because I couldn’t remember which way I came from and just went with the left one. Big mistake. I ended up going through 3 different ranches until all I could see was grassy plain all around me. I was freaking out. Jaylen overheard me say, “Oh, God”, and asked, “Are we lost?” I tell him, “No, Baby, we’re fine.” I think he heard the nervousness in my voice because he yells, “I want Bimpa!” I re-traced my steps and went back. After what seemed like forever, I finally saw the windmill Jaylen had pointed out when we went around the loop. I drove to it and lo-and-behold I see Mary at the end of the trail. I was so relieved LOL. Big Mario had gone out to look for me with Eenan so it took him a while to come back too. Quite an adventure. The day was lovely–warm and breezy. We spent the next hour and a half riding the 4×4’s…only this time, I either followed behind someone, rode behind Mary with the kids, or stayed on the ACTUAL trail Ricky was talking about. I’d gone in a completely different direction . Something that could have been brought to my attention when they saw me go down the trail-of-no-return! But all-in-all, it was fun .

When Mario got home from work that day we went to watch Blade Trinity. It was good, I liked it. I thought it was going to suck, but I liked all the other Blade movies so this one was cool too. I hissed at yet another moron for kicking Mario’s seat a few times during this movie too . It wasn’t enough that he was hacking out chunks of lung, he had to kick Mario’s seat too.

We went to Wal-Mart after that where Mario bought a curl-bar for his weight bench. He wants to start working out again, which I’m thrilled about because it’ll hopefully encourage me to use the weight-bench too. I’ve still yet to start working out, but I spent THE WHOLE DAY cleaning so I’m happy I’m at least working on not procrastinating. I didn’t even get online at all today, except for right now of course. I hope I get everything I need to get done tomorrow because I have a few Qbee things to attend to. As for the eating-well bit of my resolutions–I’m not stuffing my face as much as I had been between meals by eating a lot of junk, though I did have a teensy bit of ice cream…twice . But I’m working on it!

After Wal-Mart, we dropped John off at home. I hope he does okay. We’ll probably be seeing him this weekend again. His ex called him right when she was boarding the plane and yelled out that she loved him and this was the stupidest thing she’s ever done. Uh, duh? She said she was hoping to come back during Spring Break. He kind of wants to wait for her. I told John he better be shitting me. I gave him my opinion on everything of course, but I don’t want to say too much because I don’t want to offend him. I asked him, as gently as possible, if he really thought she’d wait for him till then. I mean, look at what she did when she first moved away; she cheated on him. What’ll stop her now? I just really think she should leave it at this and leave him alone–she’s hurt him enough. All he needs is to be completely over her, in a new relationship and then have her appear in his life again. But, he’s a big kid and can think for himself. I just hope he makes good decisions. Anyway, I only got to see Mom for a few minutes. I really miss her . I miss Gramma terribly too. I haven’t seen her in two weeks! I need to start driving over there and soon.

God, I hope Jaylen’s finally asleep. I’m so tired and Mario still wants to…uh, rendevous . Wow…the people on the new “Surreal Life” are CRAZY.

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