Category: Family

I feel like bawling right now. And John’s behind me, mocking me . I shall kick his ass after I finish this entry.

Anyway, I’ve been getting info about what school I should go to and all that jazz and was a bit disappointed that I’d have to end up going to STC for 2 years. All I’m going for is Administrative Assistant, that’s it, and I think 2 years is a bit long for that (plus I don’t want to have to take the darn THEA!). I just want to go to a trade school, or the like, where I can go for a specific program and find a damn job.

I originally wanted to go for Medical Assistant, or Medical Office Specialist, but would much rather go for something where I have more options. Then I remembered San Antonio College of Medical and Dental Assistants (whew!) and found this program. I got really excited about it, started looking at the Admission Requirements and got info about Financial Aide. Then I see (Offered at San Antonio campus). DO I LIVE IN SAN ANTONIO??? NO, I DON’T!! This pisses me off. Everytime I think something good’s gonna happen, it blows up in my face.

Don’t get me wrong. I *love* being a stay-at-home-mom. I love being able to take care of my sons and I’m grateful that Mario has a great job that allows me to stay home and not work, but I don’t want to be a stay-at-home-mom forever! It’s fine now, and I love that, but not when both the boys are in school full time. What would be the point of me staying home? And sure, I could just go out and TRY to find the kind of job I want, but that doesn’t guarantee that I’ll get a GOOD job. I want to be able to be home after the kids get out of school and take them to any extraciricular (sp?) activities they may have and the only way that will most likely happen is if I have college experience. I got pissed of course and yelled to no one in particular, “I’m just going to go and find a damn job!”. Mario replied, “No. If you don’t go to school then you’re not working at all.” Easy for him to say. I can work if I want to dammit. But I want to go to school!!! *whines*

Anyway, took the kids to the library again and the Chief of Police was there taking fingerprints and pictures for a little “Just-in-case-they-get-kidnapped-but-God-forbid-it-happens” type kit. This grouchy old librarian kept screaming at him to charge $5 for each one, so fine, I paid $10. Later, I hear the Chief telling another cop in the kitchen (and the kitchen’s RIGHT THERE since the library’s so tiny), “She’s charging $5 for them man, that’s too much. I usually do them for free.” Free. I was pissed. I don’t have money to spare and yes, I really wanted the kits since they’re a great thing to have, but Jesus, don’t cheat people just so you can buy construction paper and crayons for the darn library! (I know that’s what she wanted the money for because I over-heard her talking with another librarian.)

I got over it (not entirely obviously) and watched the boys play games and then Eenan played checkers and chess with the cops. He was having a blast since he was spending time with the police and that’s what he wants to be when he grows up .

Came home, kids chilled out and then we went to their swimming lessons. They went into the 13 foot pool again and at one point both boys needed to pee. At the same time. Jorge and Michael strethced their arms in front of them (just in case!) and carried the kids all the way over to the bathroom. It was hilarious LOL. They had fun. Tomorrow they’re taking a test to see what level they’re on, just in case they go to Session 2, which we plan on doing.

Went to Yadira’s for Vito’s 45th birthday. It was nice. Mario actually got out early. Mary made a great salad and lasagna. After cake and ice cream all the girls sat around the table and talked (mostly about babies and sex, buahaha).

And now we’re here. And I’m sad.

Oh yes, and Eenan sleepwalks. We recently put two-and-two together and decided we need to start dead-bolting the door.

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We were bored out of our minds (which meant the boys were quickly becoming fussy) so I took them to the library. They picked out a few cute books (Eenan: The Very Hungry Caterpillar & The Grouchy Ladybug by Eric Carle — LOVE his books! Jaylen: Calico Cat’s Exercise Book by Donald Charles and Oh My Oh My Oh Dinosaurs! by Sandra Boynton. Since there were many kids at the time and they were all coloring and playing games, Jaylen and Eenan sat down and started coloring pieces of construction paper while I was getting our library cards. Later, a librarian tells me about how they’re having a Summer Reading Club and it’s barely the 2nd day so if we’d like to join we were more than welcome to. I say sure, and fill out their forms. So now, after the kids read their books, they either draw a picture or write a short summary (“book report”) of what they read and they turn it in the next day. The club runs from yesterday LOL till July 1st. On the first, they’ll have a party if they had good attendance (we go each day from 2-3…didn’t ask about weekends though…). The kids think it’s pretty good. They already love to read and now hopefully Jaylen can start feeling more comfortable around other kids and won’t be so scared when he starts school. Which will be in 2 more damn years!! I hadn’t bitched about that yet, have I? Well, let me begin…

Most of the (retarded) cities around our area aren’t allowing 4 year olds to attend school (Pre-K) unless they’re dirt poor and speak only Spanish. The rest of the kids have to wait to attend their first year of school in Kinder, when they’re 5-6!! What kind of crap is that?? I think it’s great they’re taking the initiative to help Spanish as a Primary Language students, but what about the other kids? Is MY kid going to stay behind because he actually speaks English?? So when the Spanish-speaking kids learn English and the alphabet, and math and to write, MY KID is going to be left behind barely learning those things? I mean, c’mon! When Eenan was in Kinder this year, they were reading 2nd grade-level books! How’s Jaylen going to be able to do that if he doesn’t know the basics first?! I think it’s just ludicrous.

Anyway, after the kids had their fun and checked out their books, we came home and I cut John’s hair, then Jaylen’s, gave him a quick shower since he’d already had a bath, did a bit of laundry, then got the boys ready for their swimming classes. They had so much fun and I was having a heart attack! Jorge, Eenan’s coach, took him to the 13 foot pool. Then Michael, Jaylen’s coach, took him…and let him get on the diving board! Jaylen isn’t scared of anything. He nonchalantly sauntered across the plank and fearlessly jumped into Michael’s open arms. My eyes were about to pop out of my head and my mouth dropped to the floor. Eenan went too, but he was a little more hesitant, but carefully made his way across anyway–and loved it! I was terrified, but Mary assured me it was okay. I know the guys are good coaches, but these are my babies!!

Yadira, the girls, Elda and the boys all went to see Eenan and Jaylen practice today. They played in the park for a few minutes after the boys were done, while the adults talked on the sidewalk. Then we came home. Everyone went to Yadira’s to eat pizza and John went out with his friends. I started on dinner and Jaylen was fussy and ended up falling asleep, so now I’m here, in an unusually quiet house and it’s just weird LOL. I guess I’ll have some dinner:

…and then I’ll finish up with laundry and snuggle up on the couch, watch TV and eat some ice cream with caramel topping . I actually lost a few lbs. because I’ve been limiting my food intake and not chowing down all the junk food in sight. I’m down to 115 . (For new readers: Don’t freak out. My goal weight is 105 because I’m only 4 ft. 11in. tall!)

Okay, food smells good. Really hungry. Gonna eat.

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Does anyone know any good recipes for a copycat version of the Starbucks Caramel Frappuccino? I just tried one out that I found online and eeewww!

Anyway, things with the neighbors seem to be pretty…calm. The guy must be in jail and the girl I only see at night for some reason. I don’t think anyone’s at the apartment at all during the day, or it could just be I pay attention at night? On our way home from Yadira’s last night, we saw her, her mom and brother (?) strolling down the main street, and it was like 10:30pm, which I thought was pretty weird. I’m just glad things are back to normal and I hope it stays that way.

We didn’t do much at all on Saturday, till the evening. Jorge actually invited us over . Mario picked up a 24 pack of Bug Light, as a peace offering, I suppose. Eenan slept over at Mary’s and Jaylen and John went with us. Hiram was already there (he has a key to their house, don’tcha know??) and I think it was pretty damn uncomfortable for him to have us there. Aww…too bad! The reason we don’t go over there anymore is because of him, plain and simple. He has something against Mario and we have no idea what it is. At one point, Jorge, Mario, Hiram, & Joe (their neighbor) went to check something out at Joe’s house across the street and I asked Maggie, “Does Hiram talk shit about us when he’s here?”. She looked kinda shocked at the question, and almost like she didn’t want to answer. She basically said that yes, he has said some stuff, but that she didn’t think he had anything against us. I told her he’d been acting that way since we went to Albert’s birthday party. I also told her the reason we hadn’t gone over since that last time (March 1st!) was because of him and that whole night, Jorge was bitching about how he didn’t want to bar-be-cue. I told her how shitty I thought it was that Jorge and Mario have been friends forever and for some moron to come in and ruin that friendship–it’s stupid. It’s stupid that JORGE is letting their friendship slip away like that.

Right after mentioning that, the guys got back and she talked about how she wanted to go to the beach for her birthday. I said Mario wouldn’t get the day off (sarcastically, so Jorge would get the point and maybe give him the day off) and the first thing SHE says is, “We gotta get Hiram the day off so he can go.” Grr. Maybe it’s not so bad that we don’t talk to them much anymore?

John had two beers that night, which is a lot for him since he doesn’t drink beer. Needless to say, John felt like absolute crap the next morning LOL.

Maggie made a drink with beer, and OMG that shit tastes foul. I don’t know how she can just chug that stuff !

Sunday I woke up to a moody Mario who quickly ruined my morning. I was so pissed and upset that I made a private journal and just vented until I could vent no more. Still deciding whether I want to give that password out, though. I really need to install WordPress, or some kind of blogging software that has password protected entries.

Anyway, he was going to check his cousin’s system and asked if I wanted to go. Even though I was pissed at him, I decided to go since I didn’t want to be home. The boys stayed with Mary and Big Mario and splashed in their kiddie pool.

We got to Mario’s aunt and uncle’s house and I actually had a good time. Mario was out with his cousin, fixing the truck and I was inside with his aunt, talking about computers, Roadrunner, spyware and downloading. She was shocked that Mario and I knew so much about computers LOL. She was so surprised, she called us outside to tell her son what we knew, because she said, “According to him, he’s the only one who knows about that stuff” LOL. We also spoke about how I can take the basic college courses online and where I can take the THEA (the new TASP). I’m SO not looking foward to taking that. Even John said it sucks. I don’t remember ZIP about math and I know for certain I’ll have to take all the remedial maths. Blah. Just what I need, to be in school forever just so I can get a job as an administrative assistant.

After having lunch and hanging out a bit more with his aunt and uncle, we came home and later went to a movie. Eenan of course didn’t want to watch The Pacifier, so he stayed with Mary. It was a cute movie. Jaylen was super sleepy when we got there, so he was getting fussy. He kept throwing tantrums about how he wanted Scooby Snacks (we’d already gotten him a movie meal, which has candy in it and a pickle) and thew himself on the floor. When the movie actually started he was in a pretty good mood, thank the Lord. He ended up falling asleep halfway through, as usual. I was pretty disappointed we didn’t get to see Gramma again this weekend . That’s almost 4 weeks, I think, that I haven’t seen her!

I’ve been thinking a lot about the future, more than usual; about school, about what I even want to go for as a major, what kind of job I’ll have, will we make good money, when we’ll finally get a house, when/if we have another child??? Thinking about having another child in the future got me thinking about how my pregnancy with Jaylen was tough, which had me thinking, “What if the next one’s tough, too? Or what if it’s worse??”

I had a dream that night, a weird dream. I was 6 months pregnant and I had this strange, gurgling pain on my right side near my rib cage. Somehow, I had this pore, or some kind of “hole” where I had the pain and the baby was born through that hole! The umblicial cord was hanging out and everything–weirdest thing, ever. Anyway, SHE was perfectly healthy, looked exactly like Eenan did as a baby, with curly hair, and was perfectly fine for being born 3 months early. I took it as a sign that maybe, if I do ever get pregnant again, I’ll have a girl (heh!) and that my pregnancy will be okay?

Jose, Elda, and the boys got here around 10am yesterday. They’ve officially started their new lives in Texas . I ran a few errands in the afternoon (wasted 30 minutes of my life at the Department of Human Services, where I had to set up an appointment for mom, only to have the evil receptionist tell me since she moved, she needed to go to a new office. Grr!)

We spent the day at Mary’s, just talking. Later in the evening, Mary and I took the boys to their swimming lessons (I took video with my Kodak easyshare this time!) and then we all got together at Yadira’s, ate dinner, and talked, made jokes and were just loud LOL! Yadira realized that our children will all be very loud also–we could hear them scream-talking to eachother across the house . Mario got there after work, we chilled out a bit more and then we came home. I was super tired and STILL had to do chores I didn’t get a chance to do during the day.

Today, I’m hoping to take John for a drive (Mario figured out how to make the darn car work…we have to move the key foward, wait for a “click”, and then we can start the engine–dumb thing.). I also want to take the kids to the library, IF Jaylen ever wakes up LOL.

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