Category: MLV

So I guess it’s safe to say that it’s going to take me forever to “catch up” on my backed-up entries. I update almost daily, believe it or not, but I update to a super-long Word document since I’m trying to keep the entry numbers in order. Screw that, I say. I’m just going to update again starting from today and worry about adding the backed-up ones when I have a chance (which isn’t too often because of Emily and Alaethia LOL).

I guess I feel like I *have* to remember everything 1) because Emily’s my last baby and 2) because I was so caught up with work and life in general when Alaethia was a baby and I feel like I missed out on a lot, entry-wise and milestone-wise. I don’t even think I ever got to add the entry about her first birthday party! 🙁

So far, things are going really well. The boys are wonderful with Emily, especially Jaylen, who’s a really confident big brother. If she starts crying while she’s in her bassinet or swing and Jaylen notices that I’m busy, he’ll gladly unfasten her from the swing and carry her or pick her up out of the bassinet. It’s amazing watching him with her. Eenan’s good with her too, but he gets a little more nervous when she cries.

Alaethia’s also very good with her. She has her moments when she gets over-excited and starts patting her a little too enthusiastically on her head (ack, the soft spot!) but for the most part she’s great. I think she’s finally realized that Emily’s a real baby and not a dolly.

Emily’s pretty awesome at night. She has these little bouts of complete awakeness sometimes for about 2-3 hours straight, but she’s getting better. She’s my first baby to actually have a pattern. I know exactly when she’s going to be awake and asleep at night and during the day. She’s really happy and easy to care for for the most part.

The only problem we’ve been having is that, yes, a week after I stopped breastfeeding she started having trouble pooping. She’s 5 weeks old this week, as of yesterday, and she’s finally doing much better in that department.

Speaking of, she turned a month old on the 24th!

Isn’t she a beauty?? So far, everyone says she looks like me, but I don’t really see it except for maybe our noses LOL. And maybe the skin color, but she’s still lighter than me. She’s light like Mom and Gramma.

My dad-in-law was going to surprise us with a new addition to the house, a bigger living room! He decided to tell us about it because he thought we’d get a bit suspicious when new walls started going up LOL.

I’m so excited! Big Mario designed the room (it’s part of the old party porch, heh) and Mario’s designing the whole entertainment part of the room. That corner where Mario and his dad are standing in the photo is where the built-in entertainment shelf will be and there’ll be another on the opposite side (the south wall) for books and picture frames and whatnot. I really can’t wait to see it done, though there’s a lot to do, like leveling the floors, removing that darn tree stump:

and sanding the hardwood floors and varnishing them before the insulation and drywall goes up.

Mario and I celebrated our 10th Wedding Anniversary on the 27th. We didn’t get to do much because he was working tons of overtime (they were having this pain-in-the-ass show at the convention center that his boss waited till the last minute to tell them about) and of course we didn’t have much money. But we did go to one of our favorite restaurants, Kumori, for sushi.

As for yesterday, I took Alaethia and Eenan for check-ups at the doctor. Alaethia had her 2-year physical. She was such a good girl! She was excited about her appointment. She was very quiet and well-behaved when the doctor was checking her chest for her heart-murmur (she still has it so she’ll have another appointment with the specialist) and she didn’t even cry during her shot!

Eenan’s been having trouble with squinting at school so I took him in just in case and sure enough, he’ll be needing glasses again. He doesn’t want to wear them, I think mostly because there’s a class bully and he’s having enough trouble with him already. He hasn’t singled Eenan out; everyone has trouble with him. But still.

I got home and literally carried Emily around for about 2 hours. That’s the only thing about Emily: she’s a wonderful baby, but it’s hard to get things done because she wants to be held. And not just by anyone–it has to be me. It makes me feel great, that she knows when I’m holding her and that she wants to be with me all the time, but I do have to cook and clean the house once in a while!

I gave her to Mom to hold and started dinner. Jorge, Maggie and the kids were coming over so I made meatloaf, mashed potatoes, green beans and deviled eggs. It was the first time in a long time that I actually got to make a nice meal.

We chilled out eating inside and then we went out to talk with Mom and Elda. We sat in the new living room–well, whatever’s built so far of the living room LOL. Then we joined the guys (Mario, Jorge and Adan) outside and talked and joked till around 12:30am.

I was supposed to go to the doctor this morning so Dr. C. can assess the cyst I need removed from my wrist, and I did, but I went late since I didn’t have anyone to watch the girls while I showered. Mom came over around 9:45 and I left around 10:30. The office was packed and they weren’t seeing patients anymore so I’d have to wait till after 2 and go to Mission. I figured I’d pack up the router we’d just gotten last week (that really, really sucks) and return it at Target while I was already in Mission.

*whew* This feels good. To post an entry on the actual day OF the entry. I hope to keep up from now on!

Mario had work to do in the morning. So I lazied in bed after he left, fell asleep again, and woke up around 10am with the girls. I fed them both then Aly watched Noggin while Emily cooed in her bassinet. I finally had the chance to make myself some French toast and decaf coffee. I started cleaning up a bit. It was the first time I could actually freely walk around with little to no pain in my abdomen. Mary was doing my laundry. I swept and was gonna mop, but she didn’t let me. She practically cleaned the whole house, including my closet where Mario dumped everything after starting his newest project: moving all the wires, game equipment, phone, etc. into our bedroom closet, which is right behind the living room wall. He wanted nothing on the TV wall but the TV and wanted to eliminate the entertainment center so hence the reason he was doing all this.

Big Mario had the girls so I started putting my new pack of 316 pictures into my albums when I was at their house, finally. I’m gonna need another album. Now I want to go to Ross to get one. Too bad I can’t drive yet.

Jorge almost smacked me for carrying the stack of albums back to the house when I was done. I got dressed, since everyone was coming over for a cookout. I’m looking a little less chunky, although I’m still wearing my maternity pants since my incision still feels sore when I apply pressure. The good thing is, the pants are maternity and post-maternity so you can’t tell ;). I kept sneaking peeks in to make sure there weren’t any shoes on the sofas LOL.

I swaddled Emily up really well and joined everyone outside. I had a house-full of boys; my kids, the cousins and the neighborhood boys were all playing video games in the living room. Then Sammy linked his Xbox with ours from my bedroom, so there were more boys in there.

Mario worked till late, so he missed the whole bar-b-q. Circuit City was closing, so his boss was buying the displays and equipment for cheap and the guys were helping him disassemble everything and move it to the shop. It took forever.

I came inside when everyone was going home. Mario called that he was on his way home an hour later, and would I like something from the store since he was buying beer. I’d been craving a pint of ice cream (I swear I crave more things after pregnancy than during and that’s bad!). I’d been eating very well just to have that pint. He gets home and all he has is beer in his hands. He forgot about my ice cream :(. He always does that!!

I’ve decided to stop breastfeeding, as guilty as I feel, since my back and chest hurt so much and no matter how much I pump, it doesn’t make a difference. I even put Emily to the breast, which almost made me chew off my arm since she can’t latch on well, and nothing. I feel so awful about this, but my body feels miserable. I can feel the glares and hear the rude, unsolicited advice already.

Thurs., Mar. 5th – Mario didn’t officially apologize at all that morning. It was one of those mornings when the alarm went off, I turned it off and woke him up and went back to sleep before Emily or Alaethia woke up. He texted me at noon to ask how Emily’s belly button was doing—to break the ice, I suppose. I said it was fine and that I had already paid all the bills we’d planned on paying with the income tax refund. After a few exchanges about that he said he loved me and “I’m sorry”–3 times. My hormones were haywire again and I took a few deep breaths to keep from tearing up. I can’t be mad at that man for long these days.
Mary picked up some necessities for me, like pads. That’s what I hate about not being able to drive: I can’t go anywhere and do things for myself *sigh*.

Mario texted me after work that Jorge and Adan were coming over since Maggie left Jorge behind LOL. Our new modem came in and Adan installed it for us. The guys chilled out inside a while and then of course went outside to drink. If I remember correctly, Maggie came over later on to chill out for a bit and pick up Jorge.

Fri., Mar. 6th – I actually slept semi-well and felt much more alert than I had all week.

I spent most of the day with Emily and when I wasn’t with her I was pumping away in the bathroom while Mom watched the girls. I couldn’t stand the pain in my back from being so full of milk that day. It wasn’t as bad as the first days, when my back and chest felt like an elephant had stepped on me and I couldn’t breathe, but it was still really painful. I still couldn’t understand how I was so full if I was still only pumping out 1 ounce from each boob. I felt like I was carrying around a bra-full of bricks, literally. My right breast was especially lumpy and in pain.

I tried tidying up a bit and Mario called to tell me he was on his way and if I wanted him to pick anything up for dinner. The boys wanted Burger King, of course, but I wanted shrimp so I asked him to get me a shrimp plate from Starlight. I always want shrimp and complain that there’re only burger places here, but hello? Starlight’s been here for years! I just recently remembered. Still, we really have to stop doing that, ordering take-out! But it’s so hard to cook these days. Usually Emily only wants to be with me and its tough getting things done.

We planned on going to Jorge and Maggie’s, because we didn’t want to spend another boring Friday at home. So we ate quickly and went over there with Emily and Jaylen. Eenan never wants to go and Mom offered to watch Alaethia, and I was glad because I was afraid she’d act up like the last time.

We got there and said hello to Nani, Tony Sr., and Dinah was visiting from Austin. We sat with her inside a while and laughed at Jorge and Boys’ arguments. It was their boss’ wife’s birthday. They were having a get-together and we were invited. Mario really didn’t want to go, mainly because the last time they went to one of their bar-b-q’s Mario and Adan were politely kicked out (long story having nothing to do with them). I really didn’t want to go because my boobs felt awful. I’d never felt such pain in my breasts with any of the other babies. That, and I was not dressed for a party at all. I was in shorts, flip flops, and a peasant top that I was trying to hide my enormous boobs in. I had nothing nice to wear even if I could fully fit into my old clothes. Eventually, Jorge managed to convince us so we dropped off Jaylen with Mom since he’d fallen asleep about 10 seconds after we got to Jorge’s house. We only took Emily with us.

We had a pretty good time, even though I did feel awkward and underdressed at first. The food they were bar-b-q’ing was great and Emily was a doll and slept most of the time we were there. I even attended my first Adult Novelty party! I didn’t know what to expect, but it was actually really interesting. I didn’t feel uncomfortable at all, and we had a few laughs.

Mario watched Emily towards the end of the party when she woke up for a feeding and I took her with me afterward. The girls were all swooning over her. I didn’t have to carry her the remainder of the time we were there; she was being passed around!

We came home shortly after that. I was desperate for sleep but I had a lot to do, like ready Emily’s bottles, redress my incision, and pump myself because I felt like crap. I felt so awful I had to sleep with cold packs in my sports bra. If I didn’t know any better I’d say I developed Mastitis, except that I was already on antibiotics so I wasn’t getting the fevers. I didn’t know how much longer I could take it.