Stressed!

Poor Shmelionaise passed away last night. John was in pieces and I don’t blame him. It was so sad to see the little kitten in the state he was in. I was strong for John as we packed him away in his little casket (a cardboard box) but as soon as I left John alone with him (I came inside since now I’ve caught a cold and it was cold and drizzly) I cried my eyes out. It’s so unfortunate things like this have to happen. He didn’t do anything to deserve the pain he went through :(.

We found out what our final was: a presentation on one of the chapters we studied. I haven’t done anything and yes! Yes, I am procrastinating and sitting here updating my blog instead of ironing/taking a shower/planning my presentation. My feet hurt, gawddammit.

I spent an agonizing hour and a half at Target, ready to use my Target card for the 2nd time, and what happens? Either everything’s too big, too long, too unprofessional, or not there at all. I finally decide to buy bras and they don’t have a single one in my size. I didn’t want to spend all kinds of money, so I didn’t buy a new outfit. I hate shopping. God help me when/if I get a job and have to buy professional attire.

I went back to Wal-Mart later on with Mom and found a blah-ish blouse I can wear with my ugly brown dress pants. I hadn’t seen myself in a 180° mirror while wearing those pants and I noticed just how much shorter they make me look. It’s humiliating. I had found this adorable linen-ish cami with beads in aqua, clear and brown but I would have had to buy a new jacket and skirt and if I got new pants I’d have to buy shoes. It’s a disaster. I hate not being able to find clothes that fit right.

I should get the kids in bed (they should have been in bed 20 minutes ago, grr!) and do everything else I need to do. I hate feeling overwhelmed. I want to cry from the frustration!

[edit] Alrighty! I was checking my stats and noticed someone found my site by searching Google for “screw my husband please”. Why would…nevermind…[/edit]

on Wednesday, March 1st, orchid@nospamgmail.com“>Rachel said:

Sorry about your kitten…it’s always so difficult to lose an innocent little animal, and to see it struggling to survive is heart rending. 🙁 *hug*

on Saturday, February 25th, Jessica said:

Sorry about your kitty… it’s always a shame to lose one… 🙁

And what a way to find your site! It’s crazy what people will search for, and even crazier what they will find.

Go ahead hun, cry. About the only time I do cry is when I’m extremely hurt or so frustrated I can’t stand it. So don’t worry – you gotta get it out somehow. Have a good weekend.

on Saturday, February 25th, kitty said:

hey, girly! how are you? I had to read all your blogs that I missed, it’s really funny shopping for clothes really is.. I get the same darn feeling, it’s so hard to shop, it’s either the style or the size messed up.. I got sad reading about that lil kitten who just died.. I would always go in tears if a kitten died, even if it wasn’t mine…

on Saturday, February 25th, Miriam said:

I love your name. I have a friend with the same name and I just love it. I also like the name Yurico, which was her twin. Useless information I know, but yeah.

on Friday, February 24th, Lauren said:

awww poor kitty! that always makes me sad when animals die. 🙁 rest in peace.

on Friday, February 24th, Erin said:

Awww! The poor little thing! 🙁 I’m so sorry to hear about that but so happy to hear that you’re feeling better!

Ugh. I don’t like clothes-shopping either. It’s really hard to find a flattering pair of pants that won’t make me look weird. I’m 5’1″ so I can empathize with you! I don’t know what I’d do if I couldn’t just throw on an old faithful pair of jeans and a sweatshirt.

on Thursday, February 23rd, Vic said:

Aww poor baby 🙁 Well, I have a really hard time with clothes too. I feel your pain. Good luck 😉

on Wednesday, February 22nd, Johanna Rios said:

Aww, I am so sorry about the poor kitten! I totally know what you mean about the professional attire needed for most professions! I have the hardest time finding nice stuff to wear. I have around 5 black slacks and I feel as though I wear the same thing almost everyday! I am too thin for any dressy type of clothes and I hate wearing it. They have a very strict policy at our school and we can only wear jeans on Friday, and then I wind up looking like a student! Go figure!

on Wednesday, February 22nd, Fae said:

Hi there 🙂
Just wanted to say I always read your blog and have decided to start commenting lol. I know what you mean about clothes not fitting right and some days just being terrible. I too have a son and at times feel overwhelmed with life. Hope things go better for you this week!