The Boys’ Dentist Apt. & Thinkin’ About the Future

In continuation to this morning’s post…the move went smoothly, thank God. I was smart this time and backed up every single thing (just downloaded everything on the server to my computer), saved all the CHMOD #’s for my CGI things (Megabook, Greymatter) and then just re-uploaded back to this server. I was worried for a bit since my old username wasn’t the same as the new one, and well, every single page uses relative paths since the site’s skinned, but I asked one of the TCH guys if he could help me out with changing my username (they only change it for you if they really have to) and he fixed it for me . It would have taken forever to change that teensy bit of code for the 200+ pages on this site. TCH’s already scored some referral points from me . So yay! I’m happy.

Yesterday morning Sonia picked the boys and I up (since I didn’t have a car) and took us to their dentist appointments. They did pretty good; better than I thought they would. Jaylen was the bravest one though, and walked proudly in front of us and was the first to jump on the chair. They put that new protective plastic-type stuff on his teeth to help prevent cavities. He did SO good. He only screamed twice: once because the light was in his eyes and the other time because he tasted the gel stuff. The first time he screamed Eenan freaked out and started crying in the corner. When it was Eenan’s turn, he was kind of scared and screamed everytime they’d spray water in his mouth and suction it out. But other than that, he did good too, and they put that protective stuff on the left side of his mouth. The first time he got it done he only gave them a chance to do it on the right side because he was freaking out.

They got a little baggy with a toy and pencils and toothbrushes, so they were happy . I got Eenan an excuse and we dropped him off. When Sonia dropped us off at home, I noticed I’d forgotten my keys. Great! So I had to climb in through a window. That’s always fun .

I spent the day cleaning. It smelled SO BAD in here because of all the pets. We hadn’t changed their sheddings in a week and a half or so. I hate cleaning the rats’ cage because they smell and nibble and darnit, they’re Mario’s pets! He’d never change my hamster’s, gerbil’s or rabbit’s sheddings . But I held my breath and cleaned their cages out. We went to Dollar General (one of the only “stores” in this city besides Family Dollar ) where I bought some Hawaiian Breeze plug-in things and other stuff we needed and got some notebooks, scissors and water colors for the boys since I promised them I’d get them something if they cooperated at the dentist. Now it smells so good :). I love Hawaiian Breeze!

OMG, I’m watching TV and they said in California it’s ok to own a “big cat” (i.e. a TIGER) if you have a permit. I WANT A TIGER!!!

Anyway, the house looks pretty decent now. I’ve still got the bedroom to go but ugh, I’m tired already. I wish these boys (husband included) would keep this place clean! I feel like a maid .

When I’m not cleaning/cooking or tending to the family or TRYING to surf the web I’m thinking about a year and a half from now. In approximately a year and a half Jaylen will be starting Pre-K, and I will have 4 hours to MYSELF. Wow, “myself”…what a concept. For the past 5 1/2 years I’ve had a child attatched to my hip. I can’t even fathom what it’ll be like to be here ALONE. And, I probably won’t want to be here alone which is why I’m trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. What I want to do for a living. I think about this constantly and still can’t decide what I want to study for. When I was younger I wanted to be a teacher, then a vet. I can’t do either because 1–I don’t think I have the patience to be in the same room with that many kids and 2–I don’t think I could stand a little animal dying in my arms at least once a day. Everyone tells me to do something with computers but I don’t even know what. I wanted to go into the medical field, but ugh. I don’t know. I think what causes me to just come to a hault everytime I decide I want to do “this or that” is thinking, “What if in 5 years I totally hate this job?”. I don’t want to hate my job :(. When I worked in retail, I hated going to work. It was fun the first couple of months — shoot, even after I turned that guy in for stealing and his little friends TRIED making my life a living hell, I liked my job. But, when they started keeping us till 12am, it got old and I didn’t like it. That’s why I want to go to school–to get a good job where I won’t be working from dawn till dusk. I hope I can decide soon. I don’t want to just go into something at the last minute and end up miserable .

Anyway, last week I paid off Mario’s Pell Grant. We had to pay back since he stopped going to school. Well, I got a call today from another woman from another collection agency saying we still hadn’t paid. I told her we did and gave her all the info and she said there wasn’t a record of us paying. I call the company we made the payment to and she says she doesn’t know why anyone else would be billing us. Then I call the college and they say that since I’m his spouse they couldn’t give me too much info but that yes, we would have to pay both companies. WONDERFUL. Mario’s not going to be too happy to hear that. Another $400 !

Thinking about all that gave me a headache. Gonna go mess around with my Control Panel again. I might bring back the chat room. Well, maybe not. I’m not too sure many people used it last time. And what would the point be? Okay, scratch that idea LOL. I should go, I’m rambling.

on Thursday, February 24th, Diana said:

Perhaps once you start taking a few courses you’ll realize what you really like? It’s harder to know beforehand. I definitely wouldn’t have patience with that many kids, no matter what age they are! heehee. I hope you come up with something ๐Ÿ™‚ I can see how working at a retail store would be awful after a while! Good luck.

on Thursday, February 24th, Vic said:

I’ve been in college since 1995 when we had dual enrollment in high school. I left early and took courses at the community college. I still don’t know what I want LOL.

I’m going to go through with becoming a teacher, I think. I want to do elementary. I have more patience with other people’s kids than my own :X I suck LOL I would LOVE to do 5th grade, but you never know what will be open. I decided that I want to be able to spend time with my children and I want to like my job and feel I’ve done something for other people as well. Teaching gives me all of that, plus the summers off and a paycheck that isn’t the BEST, but when you come from the gutter it is a whole lot more enticing. Plus I can always add on to my degree and I will always have work. So, I think that’s it for me.

Hope you’re able to decide girly. I think you should take a course or two of things you LIKE and see how it goes. xoxo

on Thursday, February 24th, Lauren said:

hmm, i agere with Jessica right there.. i’d do that too. ๐Ÿ™‚

on Thursday, February 24th, Jessica said:

Pell grants don’t have to be paid back do they? Just loans I thought…

As far a the job goes, you should just do you general studies classes that any major would require to get them out of the way. Or pick something you think you’d like and take classes to see. Most people change majors anyway. I knew I wanted to do journalism, but then when I got into the classes, I didn’t like it very much. Now that I’m in the computer classes, I love it. ๐Ÿ™‚ And either way, even if you get a degree in major #1, at least you will have a degree – that’s what most employers are looking for anyway. And if you get into a field and don’t like it, you can always change… even if it means going back to school later. There’s nothing wrong w/ changing careers. You’d be good at computers, and webmastering pays pretty well. ๐Ÿ™‚