Ailments & Randomness

I’m just about done with my lunch (cheesy tuna pasta and green beans–leftovers from dinner). I waited a bit too long to eat and I feel shaky and gross. I hate feeling like this. I dropped Mario off at work this morning since he wants us to pick him up to go to the First Thursday at the Civic Center. On the way to work we stopped at Circle K where he picked up some tacos and a drink (we woke up too late to have breakfast at home) and I got a delicious blueberry muffin and a cappuccino. I’ve been doing really good with my caffeine intake, meaning that I hardly comsume any. Since I’m already experiencing unfortunate constipation (what? It happens to everyone, dammit) at only 14 1/2 weeks gestation I figured coffee would be my best bet at helping things, um, flow better. Sure enough, halfway through the drink, it worked! I need to ask the doctor if drinking coffee to help with BMs is okay to do, since I haven’t really asked anything at all about caffeine. As long as I don’t have to eat prunes or drink Metamucil, I’m A-OK.

The kids just finished their lunch. Eenan’s still picky when it comes to veggies, but Jaylen will eat just about anything. I gave them each 4 pretty good sized pieces of catfish for lunch and Jaylen finished them all. Then he wanted more. There was a small one and some onion rings left on a plate so I told him he could have those and ate just about everything. He really surprises me sometimes. And embarrasses me, too! Like yesterday: I’d given him lunch, a sandwich. Later he had a whole banana and half an our later he had half an orange. An hour after that my dad-in-law gets home and Jaylen asks him if he has any food because I haven’t fed them(!). My dad-in-law, jokingly of course, asks, “Why haven’t you fed this poor child?” My jaw dropped. Little booger. He did the same thing later when my mom-in-law got home. She was making dinner for Big Mario and Jaylen asks, “What are you making? I’m starving. I haven’t eaten.” LOL

When Mario called me during his lunch break we got to talking about what bills we have to pay this paycheck (the car=oh Gawd). I told him, “Oh, and $30 for my graduation things–If I decide to walk”. He said, “Woman, you better go. I already asked for the day.” Darn. I’m seriously debating whether I should go or not. Part of me doesn’t want to go because from what I know, NONE of my friends are going. Knowing the other people in my class, no one else will go either so I’ll be the only dumbass walking for my class. The other part of me wants to go because if I don’t, I’m afraid I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. Just like I regret not taking professional pictures with Mario for our high school graduation–but at least we walked. I also don’t have anything to wear and the way it’s been so far, I won’t find anything nice. I tell you: I’m not pregnant and they have the cutest maternity clothes. I get knocked up, and everything’s ugly or too big. We’re in the valley. Most women aren’t over 5′ 4″ here and they have these jeans where I have to cut a foot off!

Anyway, I don’t know what to do. What would you guys do if you were in my position?

I should finish cleaning up. My desk looks so spiffy now that I’ve filed (yes, filed) all of our paid bills since like, 3 months ago. All I need to do is file the stuff in that plastic box and use that to organize my scrapbooking stuff. I also want to do a little bit of scrapbooking and back everything up that’s on my computer. We’ve been getting these weird prompts and it shuts down randomly sometimes (especially when burning DVDs) so either the power supply, RAM, motherboard or CPU are about to take a crap. Lovely.

And to think we had the chance to buy a LAPTOP for $300. Three hundred dollars. And we were broke. *yanks out hair*