Category: Daily

Wondering

I had a dream about Ricci last night. I never have dreams about people unless they mean something, so my guess is that she had her baby. I kept thinking about her all day and even felt guilty and almost regretful that we’re not friends anymore. The scene on that last day we talked kept repeating in my head; watching her sob and say, “I’ve never felt this bad, never,” and just standing there not knowing what to do or say sends a pang of guilt into me. I feel horrible knowing that I was part of what made her feel that way. I’ve never wanted to make anyone feel that way and I’d certainly hate for someone to make me feel that way.

I still think if Kimberly and Jennifer hadn’t gotten their nosey asses involved things wouldn’t have been this way. All I wanted to get across was that I couldn’t give her rides in the afternoon anymore and let her know how bad it made me feel everytime she brought up the incident we had–that was it. I was annoyed with everything she had me do for her by that time already, but I didn’t think we’d stop being friends.

I wonder how they’re doing. How her baby is. Is it healthy? Did she have a boy this time? Are she and Goyo still doing alright?

I think they are still together. I passed by her Grandma’s today as I was going to the store and their white car was outside the house. She hadn’t been speaking to her Grandma at all, so my guess is they’re still together and they were over there because she had the baby. Maybe they even moved back in with her? As grouchy as her Grandmother is, I’m hoping they did move in. It was the most secure place they’d ever lived at.

Anyway, Mom got her new hearing aid this morning and John and I were shocked when she got into the car and she was actually speaking lightly. Usually, because she can’t hear herself, she’s yelling at the top of her lungs, and because she can’t hear, we’re shouting at the top of ours to talk to her.

Mom and John needed groceries so we went to do that and now we’re just home. My head hurts from the nap I took (never fails to happen) and I feel so tired and bored. I need to mop but I hate that I mop and 5 seconds later (or less) the darn dog decides to pee again. Grr.

I have no idea what to make for dinner, again. Yep, it’s barely 5:23 and I’m already thinking about that. I whipped up a great meal yesterday: breaded fish, corn and Ranch Style Beans (from the can, I love those!). I didn’t even know we had fish. It was hidden behind the thousands of popsicles. All we have is stew meat and ground beef left. Let’s see what I can make.

Getting Things Done

Grr. Darn dog. He was doing so good with his potty training yesterday; he’d whimper at the door everytime he needed to go out. He totally reversed today and is back to peeing and crapping wherever he pleases. We are completely out of paper towels (eating dinner tonight was a task–we had breaded (fried) fish, corn and Ranch Style Beans) because I’m constantly cleaning up after him. We have plenty of toilet paper, but his pee sops right through. Yuck.

I woke up this morning and expected to find Louie sleeping in his bed or to come running at me and attack my legs. To my surprise, he wasn’t in his bed, didn’t attack me and there was no sign of poop or pee anywhere. I whispered, “Louie! Where are you?” because they took the door down when Mario and his dad were working in there and I didn’t want to wake Mario up. Then it dawned on me–he must be sleeping with Jaylen. It’s the only other soft surface he can jump on besides the couch and he wasn’t on the couch. I check, and sure enough, he’s under the covers and comfortably sleeping beside Jaylen. It even looked like Jaylen had scooted some to make room for him. Before I could scold him I ran and got my camera and as soon as I took the picture he sprang up.

Busted!

He’d gotten up so fast his ears flipped over themselves–he looked so funny.

John and Jaylen accompanied me to my doctor’s appointment since John needed to “officially” withdraw from school and Jaylen didn’t like the Spiderman backpack we’d gotten him so we needed to exchange it. John waited outside and Jaylen went in with me.

They got my vitals first. I lost a pound. I’m 124 right now, so I guess I heard wrong the last time and was 125? There was no glucose in my urine this time, nor were there signs of my bladder infection–it’s all gone! My blood pressure was also fine. Thank goodness.

After they took my vitals, Dr. C and I chatted and he talked to Jaylen for a little bit. Then he scooted Jaylen closer to the exam table so he could see his little bro/sister.

I had a list of questions tucked under my side and I told Dr. C. I had a few things to ask him when he was done with the sono. He said, “Oh, let me see,” and got the list and started reading and answering:

– Is family allowed during delivery? Only 1 person is allowed with you, maybe 2. It’s usually very crowded with all the nurses and doctors.

– Is husband allowed to stay overnight? Absolutely!

– Is there private rooms available? Yes.

– How much extra if not covered? Ooh. I’m not sure. You usually get one anyway unless it’s extremely crowded that day.

– What can I do about my acne? We’ll talk about that right now.

– Pain in the pelvic area is due to ligaments? Correct.

– More prenatal vitamins; need prescription. No problem.

We got to talking about my acne. I told him I couldn’t stand it anymore. He said, “You know, usually acne clears up during pregnancy.” I said, “I know! That’s what happened with my other two, but with this one it’s been terrible!” To my surprise, he nonchalantly said, “It must be a girl this time.” He also checked to see if I was able to use any kind of acne medication and the answer was no–everything’s too strong. He said to try Neosporin. We’ll see how that works out.

He got measurements of the baby’s body (the baby’s size shows that I’m 12 weeks 5 days, as opposed to my LMP which says I’m 12 weeks 3 days), then got to looking around for privates. He searched and searched, but we saw nothing. We did see the baby move and her/his heartrate was at 152bpm so that’s great. He asked if I was feeling any movement yet and I told him I’d been feeling something but I wasn’t sure if it was the baby or not. He gave me a sono pic, my prescription and said he’d see me in 3 weeks when I’m 15 weeks. Jaylen behaved so wonderfully.

The whole visit took about 30 minutes, which was great. I love my doctor and office!

We went to pick up my prenatal vitamins left (have to remember to go back tomorrow since they owe me 30-some pills). They were really quick this time; they usually take half an hour!

Next on the to-do list was getting John withdrawn. We get there, speak to the head honcho who tells us she was going to drop him today anyway since it was the 10th day. Basically, we didn’t have to make the trip over there. We got some Nesteas and some Hot Cheetos with Cheese and left to Target.

Jaylen was cranky and was acting up at Target, but once he found his backpack he was more calm. He liked a Darth Vader one, but it was too long. He liked a Spiderman one, but only because he liked a water bottle it came with. We showed him some dinosaur ones and he ended up picking a brown/tan T-Rex one with the condition that we’d get him a water bottle.

Where the heck do I find a water bottle like the one that came with Eenan’s backpack (which just so happens to be The Annoying Thing–thank you Babe and Cartoon Network for introducing him to that darn thing)?

I bought myself two cute pens (one with 6 colors!) and some for the boys from the Dollar Spot. There were SO many cute things this time. I had a whole bunch of stuff in my cart, but put them back after thinking for a bit.

We went to visit Mario at work for a little bit and I showed him the sono pic and told him how everything went. He’s so excited. He told me he has a feeling the baby’s a girl too, especially since that guy, Luis, did that calendar thing for us. We’ll see if his 99.9% accuracy is true with us as well ;).

John and I laughed all the way home. I was scaring him because I was singing along to “I Believe in a Thing Called Love” by The Darkness and sounded just like the lead singer. Buahaha.

We ate lunch when we got home and then watched Click. Mario, Jaylen and I watched it last night but John wanted to see it. It was so funny, but at the end, OH MY GOSH. It tugs at your heartstrings. I found it very difficult to stop crying (damn hormones). It was so sad, even Mario teared up. Jaylen gets scared when I cry, so he was just silently staring at me while I buried my face in the blanket.

So, while John was watching the last part, I was throwing the trash out and cleaning out of earshot of the TV. I couldn’t stand crying again. When it’s over I sit next to John and ask him, “Did you cry?” and he yelled, “YES! I was expecting The Water Boy and instead I got The Notebook!

After the movie my 1st doctor’s office called–the one that sucked and wouldn’t be seeing me till tomorrow? The nurse called to remind me about my appointment and that there wouldn’t be any nurses available at that office for two weeks so I’d have to go to the clinic in McAllen. I told her I wouldn’t be going to their clinic anymore, so not to worry. I’m SO GLAD I stopped going there!

As for Isaac, he’s doing a lot better than he was yesterday. Mary informed me that at the time of his arrival at the hospital, his kidneys were already failing. I can’t believe he was that sick. It’s scary. Turns out he’d also been having symptoms of diabetes for a while now but he never really said anything because he didn’t know what was going on. I’m just glad they found it when they did. It could have been much worse :(.

On a happier note, Liz has been more active during the day. She hasn’t been as secluded as she was a few days ago. She also did her first poopie (that I’ve seen) and has enjoyed eating her live crickets. We’re out again. I should have bought her more today while I was already in town.

Exploring

Whooo. Getting sleepy. I can’t believe it’s already midnight. At least I got everything done that needed to be done today. I have another long day tomorrow–Mom has her hearing aid appointment. Joy.

About to Go Loony

I’m waiting 10 more minutes and then I’m kicking everyone out. I’m so sick of this noise! Like my own two kids aren’t loud enough without help?

I can’t wait till those walls are up. Big Mario estimated that we’ll need from 22-24 sheets of sheetrock. He’s hoping Ricky’s uncle has some in stock; it’ll come out MUCH cheaper. If not, we’re looking at spending at least $150–that’s if the price hasn’t gone up drastically. The last time we bought sheetrock was 7 years ago when they added on our huge bedroom and they were about $6 a sheet. *screams*

Still…it will be bliss when my bedroom actually become MY bedroom. No more little kids (that aren’t mine) running in it!

I have my doctor’s appointment tomorrow. Fun, fun. I know the baby will still be too small to check her/his gender, but I’m going to ask Dr. C if he’ll at least try. I’m on pins and needles here!

Also, I’ve been scanning through journals of other moms on LJ and notice a lot of them talk about cloth diapering. Now, hopefully nobody will jump down my throat about this, but what is the infatuation with these things? I can see that they’d be cheaper maybe? But I guess my biggest question is:

How do you get poop out of those things? I have a hard enough time getting my boys’ skid marks off their undies!

Speaking of, I’m almost completely done with laundry. Only the towels to go–yes! I had tons of comforters piled up that needed washing and I finally got to them today. I feel guilty wasting so much water =\.

Mario’s cousin, Isaac, is in the hospital. I’m not sure exactly what happened, but his sugar was at super high levels. I didn’t even know he had Diabetes. I don’t think anyone knew. They put a tube/catheter into his heart just in case they needed to quickly medicate him and ended up puncturing his lung. What idiots! He hasn’t even been admitted to an ICU room–he’s still in ER Triage I think. I hope Mary calls soon with more details. I’ve been trying to get a hold of Mario at work, but nobody answers the darn phone!

Please everyone, keep him in your thoughts and prayers. I hope he has a quick recovery.

I need to start on dinner and have no idea what to make (running low on groceries) so I should go.