Category: Daily

I’ve been tip-toeing about how exactly to word this post, but I figured–fuck it, I’m just going to type.

The past few months to a year, I’ve already felt like I’m at a standstill; like I’m underappreciated and like I should simultaneously be doing more. The past week has really intensified this feeling.

I started the day out on Monday with a fresh, positive outlook. The kids and I left the house ON TIME for once on a Monday! I dropped everyone off with time to spare at all the places we needed to be and I strolled into work about 10 minutes early. ON A MONDAY! That NEVER happens! Usually I’m skidding into the Monday meeting by the skin on my heels!

So anyway, our boss treats us to Cracker Barrel for a job well done the past few months. It was such a great surprise (especially because I was starving and hadn’t packed breakfast!) and it made Monday that much better.

We get back to work and I have to turn in some stuff that was already late; the 2nd batch of items that needed to be turned in. I’d done the first batch on Friday, but was told to wait on this one since it was a lot of stuff. To make a long story short and leave out a few details: Someone was scolded, and this same someone implied that it was my fault and told me “that’s the reason you’re here”. That I’m here for something mediocre; like nothing else that I contributed was important whatsoever. I was furious and I stayed quiet. Well, not too quiet, because I did mention a few things, because I was that appalled. I walked away fuming and to be honest: hurt. I bust my ass, and that’s how I’m repaid?

The couple of people I told about what happened were also shocked and couldn’t believe what was said to me, because they agreed: it wasn’t my fault. So I tried to go on about my day, but I was angry.

I had to opportunity to attend the Mayor’s Prayer Luncheon, where David A. R. White was the speaker. It was a wonderful event: the food was great, I ran into Karina! The speeches were sweet and Mr. White’s presentation was incredibly inspirational and often humorous. I felt like his entire speech spoke to me, and I needed to hear it at that precise moment. In short, it was about how we’re all here for a grand reason and how one thing shouldn’t make you feel like you should give up. I became teary, but held myself together. I decided at that moment that I need to make changes.

Skip forward to Wednesday, when I’m having a conversation with a friend, and I find some things out that turn me into a blubbering mess. Things that I suspected already, but knowing for a fact made me feel like I got punched in the gut, like I was heartbroken. It highlighted what “that” person told me even more, and I just felt like a loser, and I know I deserve more. (Before I go on, no, this has nothing to do with my husband or our marriage!) I cried for 2 days straight. Jorge was a huge support and listened to me bawl my eyes out, as were 2 other friends. I know what I have to do, but it’s at the risk of sounding ungrateful, or adding a lot of stress to my plate, or starting all over.

Either way, it needs to be done. And it’s going to suck.

I’ve been rather…uncreative with dinner lately. The girls wanted spaghetti and meatballs for dinner tonight, but since Jorge is low-carbing again I had to make something different for us. In light of Taco Tuesday, and having meatballs and veggies on hand, I threw together the easiest soup, ever! The beauty of this recipe is that you can coarsely chop your veggies and just toss everything in a pot of broth! I, of course, was missing a few ingredients since this was an impromptu recipe, but I’ll write it up the way it should be 😉 .

You’ll Need:

1 48 oz. carton of chicken broth
1/2 an onion, chopped
1/2 a green pepper, chopped
1/2 a tomato, chopped
2 stalks of celery, chopped
1 cup of frozen broccoli (this one’s optional; I tossed some in!)
1 cup (or 1/2 a 15 oz. can) of crushed tomatoes
meatballs (I like H-E-B meatballs or you can use this receipe
1 tblsp. Chobani Meze Dip Chili Lime flavor (optional)
a few dashes of sea salt
a few dashes of pepper

Toppings:
1 whole Haas avocado, sliced
chopped cilantro
queso fresco

Directions:

Bake your meatballs while you put the carton of chicken broth to boil. Chop up your veggies and toss the veggies and frozen broccoli into the pot (remember, broccoli is optional; I put it in for more texture). Add your crushed tomatoes and lower heat to a simmer once the veggies are soft. Toss your cooked meatballs into the mixture and stir in the Chobani dip (this is optional as well; it gave it a good kick and slight creaminess).

Toss in a few dashes of freshly cracked sea salt and pepper. Ladle into bowls and top with avocado, cilantro and queso freso. Obviously, I was missing the queso fresco and cilantro, but you’re welcome.

It took me DAYS, but I FINALLY FIXED MY DASHBOARD!! I’ve never been SO HAPPY to see this damn page!! The few updates I’ve gotten a chance to do have been through the WordPress app on my phone (and I *always* forget my Bluetooth keyboard :/ !) It only took a lot of enabling and disabling themes and plugins and installing WordPress MANUALLY and praying to Jesus that I didn’t screw anything up to fix it. Now, if I could just get those stupid ad banners to stop showing up!! Who the fk did that!?! It’s so infuriating!! 😡 When I inspect the code it highlights something called Cloudflare, which is apparently some plugin used to HELP with these type of situations, but it also says something about redirecting. I wish I had the time and energy to decipher these types of things myself, but look how long making my Dashboard work took me?? 😥 Anyway. One day at a time. And I managed to figure this out so I’m not, in fact, old, or dumb!! Woohoo!

[And now the darn banner isn’t even showing up. I feel crazy.]