Category: Grr

I did not want to get up in the morning. I lay in bed after the alarm went off and then I threw myself on the couch and vegged out there for a while. I was dragging. I even made some coffee that morning. At least breakfast was already ready: barbacoa left over from the breakfast Mom treated us to the day before. I miraculously got into my truck right on time, at least.

I get to work and realize I’m still wearing my stinky, dirty house flip-flops. OMG! My first thought is that Mrs. V’s going to send me home to change. When we were still located at Nellie I’d done the same thing and she’d sent me home (not meanly) to change without clocking out since I lived so nearby. Not this time though!

As I’m walking my pants are rolling under my belly uncomfortably because either my belly’s shrinking or my Belly Band stretched out (I was wearing my pre-pregnancy pants). At least I managed to clock in on time.

I walk into the library, turn to my left to turn on the lights and…the air conditioning’s not working–again. IT literally feels like a sauna. Ugh.

Three of my students came in and helped me take the chairs off the tables (since they weigh about 50 lbs. each and are too heavy for me to lift). I tell them its okay, to stop because it’s super hot in there. One of them already had drops of sweat on his forehead. They said they were fine. I seriously felt like I’d pass out. I decided that if the air wasn’t fixed by 10:30 (our half-day) I was going home.

I tried not to move at all. The boys that were helping me had propped the doors open with chairs, so it started to get a tad cooler. I read for a little bit and just monitored the kids who were checking out. The air was fixed by 9:22. And it was raining out (the hallway was beginning to flood—eek) and we had a slight cold front. It instantly put me in a better mood. I mostly checked out dictionaries to the ELA teachers and thankfully some substitutes helped me wheel them out. The day went by very quickly thankfully.

Mario got home late and told me parts of his day were pretty shitty, too. I think it was the weather.

I went to sleep feeling an uncomfortable pain in my lower abdomen. I knew it wasn’t round ligament pain because I know what that feels like, and this was nothing like it. It was sharp, burning and sort of in my bladder area and I had this incredible urge to pee every 5 minutes…but it would only trickle out. I had a darn UTI, I knew it. Sorry if that’s TMI.

I’m at the doctor’s office for my 10-week prenatal appointment. It’s going to take a while, like it usually does, so I brought my new book, “Can You Keep a Secret?” by Sophie Kinsella to pass the time. I finished “My Sister’s Keeper” yesterday. The ending was so sad and such a surprise. My hormones were on the fritz so I kept having to put the book down so I wouldn’t bawl in front of everyone at Mary’s.

Well, I tried reading the new book here but this huge family sitting across from me won’t SHUT UP! They’re talking, very loudly, about a couple who’s cheating on eachother. Hello? What if I happen to know Sergio and Anna and their lovers? I could totally run and tell them. Did this whole family come together or do they just know those other people mutually? I’m sorry, I can’t stand this lady’s voice!! It’s loud and high pitched and it cracks. *shudder* I’d rather be having the pap smear this very moment so I don’t have to hear her drone on.

Well…they just called half the people in…but unfortunately not the woman with the awful voice.

Anyway…my class/training yesterday was the same ol’ thing, but I met a fellow library clerk who was really nice. We had lunch together and talked about our kids and I told her about my worries about when to quit and all that. She gave me some advice that I’m totally going to take.

I’ve got lots to do today. John and I might go to Kumori (our last hurrah before I start working again and won’t have time) and I have to return Mario’s suit since he decided it would be too dressy (told him). While I’m there I’ll look for some maternity clothes. I’m also going to look for those maternity demi panels you can add to your already-existing pants so I can add them to my work ones. I bet they’re expensive though. I wonder if Hancock fabrics carries them?

Okay this lady finally decided to sort of whisper. I’m going to try and read now.

As you can tell from the title, my training was canceled. It would have been nice if they’d posted it on the website, like they did for Wednesday, but NOO. I had to make breakfast in a rush, eat in a rush, and then hopefully find the place just to get there and have them tell me it’s canceled. I would have been happy about it, except that now they’re going to do at least one of the trainings the first week of August–which is my last week of vacation! And if they don’t do both that week, then they’re going to interrupt my Thanksgiving or Christmas vacation! Grr.

I’m so not looking forward to waking up at 5:20am again to go to work. That’s seriously the only thing that I don’t like about my job. And along with that goes the piles of laundry and a messy house because I’m too tired at the end of the day to do anything. That’ll be one thing to look forward to when I’m a stay-at-home mom again.

I’ve decided, finally, that I’m going to stick out working till my I go into labor. I’ve been fortunate enough to coast through this pregnancy pretty easily, but I don’t want to count my chickens because it’s still early. So knock on wood!

I’m going to let my boss know about my plan, so she can put a posting up on the employment website since it’s a long process. It took them 3 1/2 months to call me after I put in the application. It’ll be less of a headache for her and less guilt for me.

I seriously took being a stay-at-home mom for granted. I’m going to enjoy every minute of it (or try to) when I’m staying home again. I should have listened to Mario about staying home after I had Alaethia. I feel like I missed so much time with her, but in essence I really didn’t because I got to see her a few hours after work at least.

I’ve got laundry to finish, sweeping and then I’m putting all the flashlights, batteries, and candles together where they’re easily accessible. I wonder how bad this tropical storm/hurricane will be? You look at the projected path and it’s coming right for us. I guess we find out tomorrow!