Feelin’ Poor :(

Just finished eating a hot ham and cheese sandwich, Salsa Verde Doritos & Tostitos cheese, and an Apple Fanta soda…that’ll hit the spot :). Went grocery shopping for the rest of the stuff we needed this morning and actually got some munchies (a.k.a. junk food)…I’m sure I’ll regret this at the end of the week when I’ve gained 10 lbs.

I really need to do something to make some money. My little Thrift Shop sure isn’t bringing much in and the shop I was going to start with my homemade bags and things isn’t taking off anytime soon because you need money to make money and well, I ain’t got no money. I don’t even know if anyone would buy anything and it would all be in vain. Mario’s supposed to get the job with Jorge by the end of this month or the beginning of November. I hope it happens. This past month has been hell. It sucks having to rely on our family for financial help. It sucks not being able to go out and rent movies, go out to a movie, buy the kids things they want like we used to, or buy things for ourselves like we used to. We’re so lucky we have Mario’s family helping us or else we’d be homeless somewhere, no kidding. Our cars aren’t working…the Sentra took a shit again and that’s because Mario had just replaced some parts. Now it has some oil leak. The Prelude is still dead. $3,500 on that car for nothing. We’ve had problems with it since after a week that Mario bought it. Mario and I were talking this morning…and I hate to say this and I don’t want to lose faith, but it almost feels as if God’s picking on us. Like he’s overlooked us or something. I don’t like comparing myself to other people…but look at Jorge and Maggie. Jorge didn’t even go to college, and here he is, assistant manager with a brand-new house and a nice truck. TWO nice trucks. Mario went to school, he busted his ass working at the hospital all those years and what? This is what we get? I just want to go out and get a job but I’ll be damned if I’m going to leave Jaylen at some daycare around here. He’s too little to go to Head Start and I’ve heard horror stories about that place, too. I’d ask Mom to watch him…and go through that program where they’d pay her for it but you already have to have a job or be going to school and well, I don’t. I’m not even sure how much she’d be making. I’d go out and look for a job right now if it was guaranteed that I’d get one and that they’d pay Mom more through CCMS (that program) than at her current job. She barely made $249 this month and that’s because they paid her her “vacation” money. They paid her a measly $2 an hour for her “paid vacation”…which is total bull because that’s not what she makes. She barely has enough to pay the bills this month and is highly considering taking up Aunt Nora’s offer and moving in with her. It sucks. I wish they wouldn’t have to have financial problems either. I’d hate for John to have to move over there. Mom too. Then, Mario hates driving me around as it is–how would I see them? I mean, I can drive, but I’m still not experienced enough to drive to Boonieville where Aunt Nora lives. I can’t believe, back in ’01 when I had just started working for Old Navy, I went with Mom to her audiologist (she has a hearing disability) and the Dr. offered me a job because he liked my phone etiquette. He had already started giving me a tour of the practice, and of the office I’d be working at and my station and everything. He described what my job would be. He handed me an application and asked me to start ASAP. And I had to turn it down because I’d just gotten the job at Old Navy and the hours Mario and I were working weren’t convenient for that job. I cringe just thinking about it. Why can’t I get a break like that now?! Now that I NEED it!?! WHEN will we get our break?!?!?!

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Enjoying the Silence

Thank you to those who sent well wishes to both Jaylen and I :). He’s doing much better. No nose bleeds and his nose isn’t runny anymore either. I’m doing better. I’m at the stage of the cold where you get all phlemy and wake up with your nose full of goop. Doesn’t sound too flattering (especially when I walk around with tissues stuffed up my nostrils), but at least my throat doesn’t hurt and boogers don’t roll out whenever I look down. But enough of that…

I put up a picture of Cookie in my pets page and I took a picture with her with my Cam, but I couldn’t get her to hold still, so all you can see is her face LOL. She’s too cute…the cutest thing she’s done today is stretch out her little hind legs after a nap and she WASHED HER EARS! You’ve got to see it…maybe, if I’m quick enough, I’ll get my digi cam and take a little video of her doing so.

We mostly just chilled out today. It was nice and overcast (since it was supposed to rain, but of course it didn’t) so we sat outside with the kids for a while. For dinner, Mario made ribs marinated in Hickory Smoke bar-be-que sauce and I made seasoned steak fries. Heaven 🙂 I could really go for something sweet right now…we went grocery shopping yesterday and Mario kept telling me, “We don’t need those chips, just get what we need,” so when he wanted to get the Double Stuffed Oreos I told him, “We don’t need those, Babe, remember?” I should have let him get the damn cookies. I would love some powdered donuts. *slaps self* Must snap out of it!

Ok…gonna take my medicine and get in bed. I hate coughs :(.

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Bunnies & Bleeding

Haven’t had the strength to write in this thing…I’m feeling better right now, but who knows how I’ll feel in a few hours or in the morning which is when I feel the most like crap. I *hate* being sick…any kind of sick. Mario, Eenan and I got sick at the exact same time and I’m the only one who’s still sick. I take vitamins even. Not that I’d wish they’d suffer along with me, no way. I just wish I’d get better quickly too :(.

As for the wild rabbit we brought home…he died on us the next day :(. I still don’t get what happened. We went to Pet Smart yesterday morning to pick up bunny supplies; a water bottle, food and treats. We got home and crushed up carrots for him and gave him water every 20 minutes or so and he was doing just fine. I held him for a while and he slept in my arms. When I went to put him back in his cage, he just laid on his side and then frantically started kicking his legs. About an hour later, he passed away :(. He was a jack rabbit…and Mario told me rabbits like that usually don’t last in captivity, even adult ones. I feel so bad. Even though he was tiny and may have been trampled by something or eaten by dogs back behind Jorge’s house, he probably would have done better in the wild :(. The boys had already gotten attached and named him Hippity Hop. Eenan had been out there with us when we laid him in the grass hoping he’d eat and he, well, expired. Eenan was already beginning to cry so we told him the bunny played a trick on us–that he pretended to be sick so we could take him outside and then he hopped away! They bought it, thank God.

So yeah, we swore we’d never bring in a wild rabbit ever again. The last time Big Mario brought home those 3 tiny cottontails we gave them to Rick and Terry to take care of, since they have more experience with little animals like that. Two of them ended up dying about a week later. Eenan and Jaylen were sad after Hippity Hop “ran away”, and we thought, “What are we going to do with all the rabbit stuff?” so we called up several pet shops and asked for prices for young bunnies. Pet Land wanted a whopping $30. One of the ones we called had 7 adult rabbits and the man kept trying to persuade me to buy all of them–said he’d give us a really cheap price LOL. We ended up finding one that had cheap bunnies ($8). There were three; one was all white and the other two were black and white. I had my eye on one of the black and white ones and checked her out and she was really active and looked healthy (no goopy eyes, clean bootie, etc.) so we got her. The poor little white one looked sick :(. He was just lying there, on his side which they rarely do. Mario said, “I’ve been promising you a bunny since forever, so you name her,” and I named her Cookie, because she’s black and white, like cookies and cream! Actually, she looks like the lower half of her was dipped in black paint LOL. She’s adorable. Her full name is Cookie the Cuteness ;). She loves to lick and LOVES to be held. She always wants to be outside of her cage. I love to feed her…when she eats her little carrots, she fights with them…she pulls at them so hard she falls back LOL. She hasn’t really been eating her alfalfa pellets though…I’m thinking we need to try some Timothy hay.

We watched A Shark Tale yesterday. Mario didn’t go…he said it looked stupid LOL. It wasn’t the greatest cartoon I’ve seen, but it was cute. I think they overdid it with the whole “hip hop” thing. Other than that, it was pretty funny. Jaylen liked it, but fell asleep halfway through (what’s new?), and Eenan didn’t really like it…he was squirming in his seat halfway through.

When we got to Mary’s van, Jaylen’s nose started bleeding…a lot. He has a cold, so we figured it was because his nostrils were dry. Same thing happened to Noelia with her cold so we didn’t freak out too much. It was scary though.

We went to see Gramma after we picked Mom up from work. She’s doing well :). We can’t visit her as often as we’d like anymore, unfortunately, because the hospital/nursing home is so far away. We do call her to check up on her though. She’ll be at that place for another 13 days or so, which sucks. I can’t wait till she gets transferred.

Later during the night, Mario was going to go to Jorge’s house. I was lying on the floor watching TV with Cookie lying on my stomach in the living room, Jaylen had fallen asleep on the couch, and Eenan was asleep in the bedroom. Jaylen starts laughing in his sleep and then opens his eyes half way and starts laughing harder. He gets up and as he’s laughing he starts hopping around on his knees as if he’s trying to catch something. I start to freak out a bit so I put Cookie in her cage and then notice Jaylen just sitting there, with no expression on his face…and then blood starts gushing out of his nose! I ran to the bathroom to grab the toilet paper and kept trying to calmly tell him to put his head down. He was hysterical and I swear, I’d never seen so much blood. I called Mario and he said he’d come right back and we’d take him to the emergency room. He told me to call Mary and ask if she could watch Eenan so I did, and thank goodness she was still awake. When we finally got the bleeding to stop, we just sat there trying to figure out what to do. We decided to check on him every hour, since they probably wouldn’t see us at the ER for a few hours for “just a nose bleed”. So I set the alarm to go off every hour and I stayed up an extra hour since he kept tossing and turning just to make sure he wasn’t having trouble breathing or anything. Needless to say, I was pooped in the morning. We dropped Mom off at work and were going to take him to one of the only clinics open on Sunday, but they didn’t open till FIVE. He’s been OK all day though, thank goodness. Maybe it was just his nose being dry from the cold. I hope mine doesn’t start bleeding…my nose has never bled, ever, and I may just faint if it does. I felt so nauseous and dizzy when Jaylen got sick like that last night.

Tonight, Mary and I both made meat loaf, mashed potatoes and corn for dinner LOL. Yadira, Tommy and the girls came over and ate here. They love Cookie, but then, what’s not to love? She’s the cutest damn thing :). Just got done watching The Forgotten…crazy movie. Gonna see what’s on TV and rest…I’ve been on my feet all day!

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