Category: Bitching

Yes. Just one more day till the weekend! I really can’t wait. Alaethia refused to go to sleep till 12:30 last night, woke up for a bottle at 3am and I could barely get up at 5:20, my usual time. I let myself “sleep in” 10 more minutes, but that just made things worse since I got a headache.

Today was SO hectic at work. The kids (and some teachers) are running around like chickens with their heads cut off trying to meet the criteria to attend the field trip next Friday. (Which reminds me: I need to go and buy my own rollerblades. The ones at the skate center smell like rotten cheese.) I had kids going in all day asking me to check their goals. It’s so heartbreaking to have to turn them away because no matter how hard they try, they’re just not going to make it. I really don’t know why teachers don’t push reading until there’s a reward of some sort. Had the students been encouraged to read all year the majority would be going.

I had a little…talk with that kid that was rude to me last Wednesday. He was rude again today and I wasn’t having that crap. I don’t lose my patience very often, but this kid is just something else. Not even the rudest kids I’ve had the pleasure of encountering so far have been as rude as this one. But I think the talk might have worked, we’ll see. If there’s another little problem, I’m definitely issuing out a referral!

Things at home were much better. The boys were well behaved and Alaethia was cute, as always. She’s dancing to the little iPhone tune right now; shaking her bootie back and forth. Now she’s trying to change the channel on the TV. And is doing squats and clapping LOL.

I got to surf for a while, spoke to Sally on the phone and hung up most of the clean laundry that was laying on one of my sofas for a week. I’m terrible about putting laundry away, but I’m happy to know that my boss is also bad with it, so I’m not the only one. I made dinner (sandwiches, anyone?) and then worked out with Mary. I really don’t feel like it’s making a difference at all, but at least I’m doing something and making my heart work. I still need to work on my portion sizes and need to cut down immensely on my sweets-snacking if I want to see some kind of difference. I might go weigh myself at the nurse’s office tomorrow.

Anyway.

*sigh* I’m feeling stressed about certain things, but I won’t write about it now. Maybe I never will. I just want to document this so that I can look back and feel relieved that I made it through this and things got better.

Last night could have quite possibly been one of our worst nights while Alaethia isn’t sick. It was Day 1 of bottle-weaning and it was awful. She cried from 11 pm to 1 am. I was about to give up and just pop a bottle in her mouth at least three times during those two hours, but I stayed strong and let her cry it out till she was so exhausted that she grabbed the cup from me and fell asleep. Mario, who actually stayed awake the whole time for once, rubbed my back and said, “You’re a good Mom.” Those words make it all worthwhile.

Now we’re on our way to the zoo. I packed everything up this morning and we were all ready and leaving by 8:05am like we planned. We didn’t actually get on the road to leave till 9 something since we were waiting for all the other people and vehicles who’d be part of our caravan. And now we’re here and there’s no parking. This’ll be fun!

I made lasagna last night while we watched Number 23. Eh, not as good as I thought it would be. We ate, got the boys into bed and Mario took Alaethia with him across the street to Jason and Adan’s while I showered. I called him when I finished up and he watched her a little more while I ironed. He went back over there and Alaethia and I cuddled while she drank a bottle and quickly fell asleep. I was grateful, since it was almost 11pm.

I tossed and turned for the next 16 minutes. I heard Mario in the living room around 12am so I went over there and told him I couldn’t sleep and could he please watch TV in the bedroom so I could at least feel him next to me? I still have trouble sleeping when he’s not in bed. I toss and turn a for two more hours. I couldn’t stop thinking about stuff, especially how I was supposed to take 15 extra minutes during lunch on Friday and didn’t. It was so hectic that day there was no way I could take longer during lunch, or leave earlier. But anyway, it was around 2am when my stomach started churning and let’s just say I visited the bathroom quite a bit for the rest of the night. I slept maybe a broken half hour and then I finally really fell asleep at 5:27am.

The alarm went off at 5:50 and I got up to get ready but I just couldn’t. My stomach felt empty and sore, I was exhausted and my head was in pain because on top of getting some kind of bug I have a cold I’m getting over and my sinuses were extremely stuffed. Plus, I didn’t know if my stomach would behave itself at work. I just couldn’t go in. I started making the calls I needed to make, which sucks because I had to wait till almost 8am to report my absence since the automated phone number I’m supposed to call never works. I got a little chewed up about not calling in sooner, but I keep going over that in my head, like, how am I supposed to know “in advance” that I’m going to be sick?

At least I got to see the boys get ready, and Mario get ready and gave Alaethia her morning bottles. She didn’t let me sleep at all, so it’s not like I’m really resting. She took about a 20 minute nap with me but then I had to get up and go turn off the central air unit since the line froze. Grr. I have to go turn it back on in 6 minutes.

I had a breakfast of waffles and I haven’t made a trip to the bathroom once so hopefully I’m better. I don’t want to miss anymore work! I just called in half a day on Thursday for Aly’s appointment and now again. Bleh.

I’m not going to try and sleep anymore. Hopefully tonight won’t be as awful as yesterday. I’ve never NOT been able to sleep in my life. I’m going to catch up on Desperate Housewives since I missed it yesterday and then do some laundry while I have a chance.