Category: Family

I’m starting to think that maybe this whole school thing wasn’t such a good idea. Don’t get me wrong; I’m thrilled about going and I love what I’m learning, but I can’t think good thoughts and be happy about it when I’m not sure how we’re going to make it through the two weeks till Mario’s next paycheck. At this point, I’m not even sure how we’re going to buy groceries.

Mario was expecting a nice, hefty check this pay period. He’d done a big system in a Jeep and then he and Albert worked on that airplane. He made about $250 less than what we anticipated he’d make. I need to pay my damn tuition payment, which is $125. That money could go towards groceries, or things we need around the house. I was so excited when Mrs. C-R was telling us about our Word Expert Certificate exam. The best score is a 1000 and a passing score is 630. I’m almost positive I can pass it, not exactly with a 1000, but I can pass. She also said she’d give students who got a 1000 $25 out of her own pocket. She then told us if we pass all 4 parts of the test (Word, Excel, Access, and PowerPoint) we get our Masters as a Microsoft Specialist. THEN, she told us how much it would be to take the test: $70-$85. Doesn’t sound like too much, but when you’ve got all these other bills…

I seriously don’t know how we’re gonna do it . I started bawling my eyes out while we were talking with Mary and instead of Mario being compassionate and understaning he yells, “Don’t start. You’re pissing me off. I already told you I’d take care of it.” Real nice.

AND THEN, Aunt Nora and everyone else told Mom they don’t want Jaylen going over there. I don’t know why, but they don’t. If we ever get into the CCMS program, we were going to drop Jaylen off over there and Mom would watch him and she’d get paid for it (and she could finally quit her job). John and I could go to school together and all would be peachy. But, as luck would have it, things never seem to work out for me. I’m really pissed at Aunt Nora.

*sigh* Anyway, enough of that.

We got our study guides back…I got a 92 :), which is pretty darn good considering a lot of the class got 60’s. We did a quick review of Chapter 10, the last chapter before our exams on Tuesday. It’s safe to say I forgot every single thing. Mrs. C-R spent so much time getting some students “on the same page” that by the time she got to the next section, I’d already forgotten how to do the previous. Good thing I copied the files onto my jump drive; I’ll study them here at home this weekend.

I helped Mrs. C-R install Word 2003 to Lucy’s laptop and Mayra’s computer. Ricci and I didn’t leave school till 1. Went to pick up Mario’s check, cashed/deposited it at the bank (and almost side-swiped someone on the way there because my dumbass self always gets into the farthest lane instead of the closest. Mario constantly tells me not to do that and now I know why ), took $100 back to Mario for lunch, gas, and whatever else, went to H-E-B to get some pretty flowers for Mom since it’s her birthday, took them to her at work (she loved them !) and then we finally came home. I got down at Ricci’s to say hi to her grandma and we talked for a bit. I didn’t even get to call Rejeana to get directions to her house to go see Renetta and her new baby! I feel so bad. Gotta jot it down and remember to go see them.

I guess that’s it. I’ve done my bitching for today. Gonna TRY and watch XXX State of the Union with Mario and John. I feel so tired and sleepy already. Gotta wake up at 7:30 to go exchange Eenan’s clothes (we went yesterday, but Jaylen threw the most embarrassing fit on the floor of JCPenny, so we came home). I was supposed to get a haircut, but I don’t think I will. Eenan definetly needs one; gotta go do that too. I don’t even feel like going to the wedding anymore. Everyone’s gonna be all glammed up (nails done, hair styled/some highlighted) and I’m going to look like absolute crap. Blah, we also gotta go to Circuit City and get a few bucks back (thank GOD).

I never just get to CHILL OUT.

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Today started out…not so good. After the very sweet and touching entry I wrote about how loving my husband is, we got into a fight. I won’t go into details, but I ended up smacking him with a handful of the pretty flowers he got me. Yeah, it got that bad. A lot of the flowers survived though, heh. I still feel bad I took it out on the flowers .

Anyway, I was pissed at him most of the day and he kept trying to make peace, but I wasn’t having it. I was just that mad. Eventually, I eased up a bit and we started talking. We left around 1:30 to pick up money from Mom to pay for her storage unit. Then we got some drinks and drove to the school where I had my appointment at 2:30.

The appointment went well. Things happened so fast–I started thinking, “What did I get myself into??”. I officially start school on July 26th. I’ll be attending classes for 9 months from 8am to 12pm. I should graduate April 2006. I hope everything works out. Since it’s a private school and “basics” aren’t required, we’re going to be paying a lot out of our own pocket, but Mario assures me we can do it. I don’t think I would have gone through with it if he didn’t keep reassuring me that things would be okay. One of the perks is that I get a Blackberry LOL. It makes me nervous just *thinking* about having to drive through heavy traffic over there though. Tonight, Mario, John, Noelia, Jaylen and I (Eenan was with Mary, as always) went to the mall. I drove. I can now say that yes, I LOATHE getting off at that exit and quickly turning into the mall. People are so damn aggressive when they’re driving!

Tomorrow, I have so many calls to make. We have to figure out who’s going to be watching the kids for us while Mario’s at work and while I’m at school, which is most likely going to be Mom. We need to figure out how to pay her and all that. I also have to reschedule an appointment I missed and I have to call and check if my scholarship’s still good (it’s only $500, but hey, it’s something right?). John has a physical at 11am for his insurance, then at 12:30 we’re going to go pick up Mario’s paycheck at work and deposit for him. I’m nervous about that since it’s in a very busy part of town and it’s going to be during lunch…oy.

At 2, I have my appointment to sign the rest of the papers and all that junk at the school. I’m still in disbelief that I just jumped into this. I didn’t think I’d start this soon! I was really excited about it, but now I’m just really scared. What if we can’t do it financially?? We’ve got so many bills to pay this paycheck…it’s a bit overwhelming. Mario also needs to get the Prelude fixed so I can keep the Sentra for school. Ugh…I hope everything works out and falls into place. I’ve got such mixed feelings about this now!

*breathes* I can do this. We can do this.

As for Mario’s jaw…he’s got a strained ligament. He’s on meds for the swelling and pain and is only allowed to eat foods he can “slurp” basically. Poor dude.

Gonna go finish filling out my Financial Aide papers. I have a headache.

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Finally, we finally have our internet back. Turns out one of our lines was bad. One of the technicians commented about how I should leave my hair “down” because it looked nice. I felt kind of uncomfortable and said, “It’s too hot” LOL.

Our phone’s still not working and I’m wondering if it has anything to do with our AC going out a few times. I’m thinking they moved (or cut?) the lines up there. It’s kind of a coincidence everything just stopped working all of a sudden.

Not having internet is such an inconvenience. We needed the internet for so many things this weekend and it sucked not having it LOL. But yay, now I can update and I need to answer e-mails/return visits.

Anyway, we went to Mexico on Saturday since Yazmin had a dentist appointment and we needed to pick up the Yu-gi-oh centerpieces for Eenan’s birthday party. There’s 12 of them and we have to paint them all! These are a little more detailed than all the other ones we’ve ever painted too.

I don’t remember much from that night…I think we just went to Yadira’s.

Mario had Sunday off, so we just cuddled in bed for a few hours and were just being lazy. We went to Yadira’s for a while and then I took John to the store and we went back. We were almost broke so we didn’t go anywhere (had our credit card but we’re REALLY trying not to spend that anymore). We came home, Mario took a nap, the boys stayed with Mary and I took John driving on the expressway. He did really well; I was surprised at how calm he was. All he needs to do is pay a little more attention when he’s turning into other lanes.

That night Mario left to see his good ol’ buddies: Watson, Robby, Art, and Jorge. I was pretty pissed and thought the worst, since usually, when he hangs out with Watson, he starts to be an asshole with me. He tried cuddling with me that night but I smacked his hand and sternly said, “NO”. I was still upset .

Yesterday, July 4th, Mario and I had a *lovely* morning .I guess you can say he made up for leaving while I was making dinner the night before. We got ready and left to watch War of the Worlds. I don’t know if it was how loud the surround sound was, but damn, that movie startled me. I kept grabbing on to Mario’s arm and pressing my ear against it LOL. It was good, but the end was kind of…abrupt? I don’t know how to explain it, but I did like it.

We came home, I made lunch, we ate and then we went to see Gramma at the nursing home to wish her a happy birthday. I drove there. We chatted with Gramma for a while and I showed her how long my hair was. She’d never noticed it since I always have my hair up since it’s so darn hot out. She said, “It’s so pretty! But doesn’t your head hurt?” LOL She’s so cute .

We went to the mall after we left but they were closing right when we got there, so we went home. We sat around and watched TV for a while and then Andy and Noelia got here. They brought fireworks for the kids and we all had a really nice time. Poor Andy burnt poor Mario with a punk by accident, but all was well. We also saw firework-show-type fireworks that the neighbors usually buy, so that was pretty cool.

And that was our weekend. I need to visit dailies and see what’s going on with everyone. I feel so…behind!

And OMG…now that I have my license, do you know what that means?? That means I can now legally drive to school, finish school and then get a J-O-B!!! But wait, I need to either find or go to Edinburg and buy a new diploma before I can get INTO school. But it’s okay…I’m on a roll. I KNOW I can do everything I’ve wanted to do.