Category: Grr

Poor Shmelionaise passed away last night. John was in pieces and I don’t blame him. It was so sad to see the little kitten in the state he was in. I was strong for John as we packed him away in his little casket (a cardboard box) but as soon as I left John alone with him (I came inside since now I’ve caught a cold and it was cold and drizzly) I cried my eyes out. It’s so unfortunate things like this have to happen. He didn’t do anything to deserve the pain he went through :(.

We found out what our final was: a presentation on one of the chapters we studied. I haven’t done anything and yes! Yes, I am procrastinating and sitting here updating my blog instead of ironing/taking a shower/planning my presentation. My feet hurt, gawddammit.

I spent an agonizing hour and a half at Target, ready to use my Target card for the 2nd time, and what happens? Either everything’s too big, too long, too unprofessional, or not there at all. I finally decide to buy bras and they don’t have a single one in my size. I didn’t want to spend all kinds of money, so I didn’t buy a new outfit. I hate shopping. God help me when/if I get a job and have to buy professional attire.

I went back to Wal-Mart later on with Mom and found a blah-ish blouse I can wear with my ugly brown dress pants. I hadn’t seen myself in a 180° mirror while wearing those pants and I noticed just how much shorter they make me look. It’s humiliating. I had found this adorable linen-ish cami with beads in aqua, clear and brown but I would have had to buy a new jacket and skirt and if I got new pants I’d have to buy shoes. It’s a disaster. I hate not being able to find clothes that fit right.

I should get the kids in bed (they should have been in bed 20 minutes ago, grr!) and do everything else I need to do. I hate feeling overwhelmed. I want to cry from the frustration!

[edit] Alrighty! I was checking my stats and noticed someone found my site by searching Google for “screw my husband please”. Why would…nevermind…[/edit]

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Mario and I share everything, including flus and viruses. Whatever he has, I caught. I could barely drive home from school yesterday. It was 90° outside and I had the air off, windows up. I was freezing. I get home, take some DayQuil, nap for an hour and a half before I have to pick Eenan up (and go to the library to pick up a book, the bank and the post office), and then I get the sweats. Not just any sweats, not the kind that form tiny water bubbles over your pores, no. These were waterfall-type sweats. The lady attending me at the library must have thought I was having crack withdrawls. The pain I was having in my neck–which I thought was due to sleeping crooked–has become unbearable. My neck is swollen on the left side. I can barely turn to check my blind spots when I’m driving. It sucks. I didn’t know Mario was having this problem until today. Hypochondriac that I am I searched on Webmd.com and found this article:

Swollen glands with shaking chills or a fever

Having swollen glands and feeling ill are typical symptoms of many viral illnesses, such as colds or sore throats, that often get better with home treatment. When these symptoms occur with shaking chills or a high fever, it may mean a more serious infection is present. Uncontrollable shaking chills (rigors) that occur with a high fever can make the teeth chatter or the bed shake. They are usually caused by the release of bacteria into the bloodstream and a severe infection.

Bacterial infections are usually treated with antibiotics. Prompt treatment can prevent complications.

Lovely. It doesn’t even say EXACTLY WHAT WE’RE INFECTED WITH!

Having no health insurance sucks. Luckily Mary’s going to Mexico tomorrow to get us Penicillin. God Bless that woman.

Changing the subject, we went to Mr. Gatti’s today. The whole class actually conversed with each other and we were all very pleasant. I felt delighted and saddened at the same time because it took us this long to be peaceful with each other. They’re graduating next month. It’s really sad when you think about it .

We (Mayra and I) had a talk with Lucy today. I just don’t know how to help that girl. We’re worried about her more than ever. I want to call her and talk to her but I just don’t know what to say. I have no experience with these kinds of things.

Mario, the kids, Mary and I had an early dinner at The House of China. I felt like a gluttonous pig since I’d only eaten 5 hours earlier and was still full (or maybe it’s this virus thing? Mario and I both feel full all the damn time). Mary, who was sitting beside Eenan felt his head and she said he had a fever. We decided to take him to the doctor as soon as we were done eating.

They ran four tests on him: urine, blood, nose scrape and throat scrape. The diagnosis: Strep Throat. His doctor said either we have the same thing and it’s just idle for now or we just have something totally different. But she usually didn’t see neck pain involved with Strep. I promised him a Pokemon toy since he’d been so brave with all the tests, especially the one that pricks your finger to check your blood. Even I hate that. I’d rather get blood drawn through a vein in my arm.

I’m going to cuddle with my sickly husband now. I can barely hold my neck up and I have the chills. He’s got a fever and has the fan pointed to him so there’s going to have to be some type of compromise…

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I’m fine, I’m alive. Passed my Technical Writing class with an A. Did great on my presentation, which was on Mario’s cell phone, if I do say so myself. Mayra, Ricci, and Lucy all did great, too. Everyone did actually–I was really impressed.

Ricci hadn’t gone to school in a while as I last mentioned. I went over there last Thursday after school and kidnapped her and the girls. I’d gotten a phone call from her, well Goyo actually, and she wrote me a letter saying her car was stolen. I was in shock. I couldn’t believe how much bad luck she’d had. She caught up on her assignments here, she turned it in and we did our presentations the next day and then we visted her Grandma. We got some shocking news about her car. I won’t go into detail as it’s not my story to tell, but she’s car-less.

Lucy seems to be having problems now, more than ever. She’s missed school two days in a row and that’s just unusual of Lucy. I don’t know how to help her and that sucks. It sometimes seems like she doesn’t want help at all.

Mayra, Rolando, Ricci and I went to eat at the House of China yesterday after school. It was fun and our conversations were just crazy. Ricci and I stopped by Mario’s work today and he sent me to Taco Bell to get him a Gordita, so I got Ricci and myself some food. Yum. I got that Fiesta Salad. Too bad I have incredible heart burn now!

We’re having a “Field Trip” on Friday to T-Mobile and after that we’re eating at Mr. Gatti’s. With all this fast food, it’s a wonder that I can’t figure out JUST HOW I’m gaining weight.

I actually lost 3 lbs. over this weekend after catching a virus on Friday (I even had to leave school early!), but I’m pretty sure I gained it all back, plus some, heh. I love food, what can I say?

Ok, the Fideo is burning or something and I feel like my body’s about to collapse. I’m so tired. Poor Mario came home from work with a fever and ear ache. I hope he’s okay for tomorrow.

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