Category: Grr

Why, oh why, are they showing Jennifer Lopez videos non-stop on MTV??? I could turn the channel…but I can’t find the remote . Yeah, I’m lazy like that.

I watched two My Super Sweet 16’s last night. Nothing else to watch. I can’t stand how arrogant and spoiled those little girls are. They kept talking about how beautiful they were *gag*. If they ever have to step into the real world (which I doubt with Daddy handing them a wad of cash) they’re in for a big disappointment. The only nice one in all those episodes was the brunette from the first episode. OK, I should stop…before I say something incredibly bitchy .

I’ve actually been watching American Idol . The four people that got booted last night sang so well, especially the first girl. I think it’s so screwed up how they tell them they’re out of the competition and then ask them to sing . The one girl who didn’t sing too well that I thought was going to get booted, didn’t. I almost feel like going out and buying the very first season of AI, just to see how they sounded since they keep talking about how this group’s “the best” out of all. But anyway. My favorite singer so far has got to be Carrie Underwood. I LOVE her voice. I also loved the Maynard triplets. I’m still quite upset that they didn’t make it. They sang better than people who are still on the darn show. I saw them on Good Day Live a few days ago and think they’re too cute. Stupid Simon…calling them fat. There were people bigger than them who made it in…but what does it matter anyway and what does that have to do with their singing?! I think they look just fine *hmph*. *edit again* I’m watching the guys’ performances on AI since I missed it Monday and I have to say my favorite boy is probably Bo Bice. He has a great voice! Wow…a lot of the guys sing VERY well.

I hate the way they say Mario Vasquez’s name. *stabs* It’s VAHZ-KEZZ not VAZ-KWEZ. Oh yes…and Mikaela Gordon — or however you spell her name –annoys me. I thought she would have gotten booted too.*/edit*

Thank you all for the comments on my previous post. I went to bed thinking about it last night, and woke up thinking about it. What I forgot to mention was: I haven’t even taken my TASP, or ACT’s. I’ll probably have to take those and I know I won’t pass the math part and God forbid I have to take remedial courses and crap like that. I don’t know if I want to be in school for 4+ years. I was talking with Mario about this last night and he said, “You just don’t worry about it. You go to school.”

I want a house. I want to go to school (for a little while) find a good job and then get a house. That’s all I want is my house. I know going to some course that takes 9 months won’t get me as good a job as if I went to school for 2+ years. That’s also what makes me worry. But I really want my house. If Mario and I were both working we could get a house. Yes, I have house issues. I’ve never lived in a nice house and I want one. I want my dream home. I have every single thing in my dream home planned out. But I can’t just be thinking about how I want to rush and get trained for “some job” because then I’ll be unhappy and that’s exactly what I don’t want. But we’ll see.

Gosh, Mario never called. They told him to go in at 9am this morning so he could finish up this car he was working on and then after that, he could come home or stay. It’s 11 and he hasn’t called yet. I really hope he can get at least part of the day off . God, that’s another thing. I want a job where I’ll get to see and spend time with my family. And have weekends off . That’s not asking too much, is it? Buahaha.

Allllright. I need to go through e-mails and return visits, comments and so on. The house is clean, Jaylen’s asleep and I have free time!

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In continuation to this morning’s post…the move went smoothly, thank God. I was smart this time and backed up every single thing (just downloaded everything on the server to my computer), saved all the CHMOD #’s for my CGI things (Megabook, Greymatter) and then just re-uploaded back to this server. I was worried for a bit since my old username wasn’t the same as the new one, and well, every single page uses relative paths since the site’s skinned, but I asked one of the TCH guys if he could help me out with changing my username (they only change it for you if they really have to) and he fixed it for me . It would have taken forever to change that teensy bit of code for the 200+ pages on this site. TCH’s already scored some referral points from me . So yay! I’m happy.

Yesterday morning Sonia picked the boys and I up (since I didn’t have a car) and took us to their dentist appointments. They did pretty good; better than I thought they would. Jaylen was the bravest one though, and walked proudly in front of us and was the first to jump on the chair. They put that new protective plastic-type stuff on his teeth to help prevent cavities. He did SO good. He only screamed twice: once because the light was in his eyes and the other time because he tasted the gel stuff. The first time he screamed Eenan freaked out and started crying in the corner. When it was Eenan’s turn, he was kind of scared and screamed everytime they’d spray water in his mouth and suction it out. But other than that, he did good too, and they put that protective stuff on the left side of his mouth. The first time he got it done he only gave them a chance to do it on the right side because he was freaking out.

They got a little baggy with a toy and pencils and toothbrushes, so they were happy . I got Eenan an excuse and we dropped him off. When Sonia dropped us off at home, I noticed I’d forgotten my keys. Great! So I had to climb in through a window. That’s always fun .

I spent the day cleaning. It smelled SO BAD in here because of all the pets. We hadn’t changed their sheddings in a week and a half or so. I hate cleaning the rats’ cage because they smell and nibble and darnit, they’re Mario’s pets! He’d never change my hamster’s, gerbil’s or rabbit’s sheddings . But I held my breath and cleaned their cages out. We went to Dollar General (one of the only “stores” in this city besides Family Dollar ) where I bought some Hawaiian Breeze plug-in things and other stuff we needed and got some notebooks, scissors and water colors for the boys since I promised them I’d get them something if they cooperated at the dentist. Now it smells so good :). I love Hawaiian Breeze!

OMG, I’m watching TV and they said in California it’s ok to own a “big cat” (i.e. a TIGER) if you have a permit. I WANT A TIGER!!!

Anyway, the house looks pretty decent now. I’ve still got the bedroom to go but ugh, I’m tired already. I wish these boys (husband included) would keep this place clean! I feel like a maid .

When I’m not cleaning/cooking or tending to the family or TRYING to surf the web I’m thinking about a year and a half from now. In approximately a year and a half Jaylen will be starting Pre-K, and I will have 4 hours to MYSELF. Wow, “myself”…what a concept. For the past 5 1/2 years I’ve had a child attatched to my hip. I can’t even fathom what it’ll be like to be here ALONE. And, I probably won’t want to be here alone which is why I’m trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. What I want to do for a living. I think about this constantly and still can’t decide what I want to study for. When I was younger I wanted to be a teacher, then a vet. I can’t do either because 1–I don’t think I have the patience to be in the same room with that many kids and 2–I don’t think I could stand a little animal dying in my arms at least once a day. Everyone tells me to do something with computers but I don’t even know what. I wanted to go into the medical field, but ugh. I don’t know. I think what causes me to just come to a hault everytime I decide I want to do “this or that” is thinking, “What if in 5 years I totally hate this job?”. I don’t want to hate my job :(. When I worked in retail, I hated going to work. It was fun the first couple of months — shoot, even after I turned that guy in for stealing and his little friends TRIED making my life a living hell, I liked my job. But, when they started keeping us till 12am, it got old and I didn’t like it. That’s why I want to go to school–to get a good job where I won’t be working from dawn till dusk. I hope I can decide soon. I don’t want to just go into something at the last minute and end up miserable .

Anyway, last week I paid off Mario’s Pell Grant. We had to pay back since he stopped going to school. Well, I got a call today from another woman from another collection agency saying we still hadn’t paid. I told her we did and gave her all the info and she said there wasn’t a record of us paying. I call the company we made the payment to and she says she doesn’t know why anyone else would be billing us. Then I call the college and they say that since I’m his spouse they couldn’t give me too much info but that yes, we would have to pay both companies. WONDERFUL. Mario’s not going to be too happy to hear that. Another $400 !

Thinking about all that gave me a headache. Gonna go mess around with my Control Panel again. I might bring back the chat room. Well, maybe not. I’m not too sure many people used it last time. And what would the point be? Okay, scratch that idea LOL. I should go, I’m rambling.

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Friday was basically the same as every other day, but was much less hectic. I’m was on this natural high. During lunch, Mario called and told me that he’d been on comission the past two weeks and didn’t even know it. Then he told me how much his paycheck came out to this week. My eyes about bulged out of my head ! In my state of shock I stupidly ask, “How’d that happen!?” And he says, “I busted my ass this week!” LOL I’m so happy for him. He was just talking about how he was still on hourly and wasn’t happy about it. I’m so proud !

When Eenan got home from school on Thursday I asked him how it went. He said fine and that nobody made fun of his sandals LOL. I’m glad. Friday they had their Good Life Celebration — a party/dance they have for them every end of the 6 weeks if they’ve kept their grades up and have been well-behaved — and Big Mario said he saw him and Angela dancing together. Aww !

After Mario left to work that morning I laid on the couch with Jaylen since he wanted to run his fingers through my hair (yes, he still has that bad, bad habit) and take a nap. I started tickling him and when I stopped he said, “Again!” I told him no, that I’d scratch him with my nails. He grabs my hand and stares at my nails and says, “Those are claws!” LMAO I knew they were long, but Jesus!

We went to Jorge & Maggie’s after Mario got home from work. I helped Maggie make the potato salad and the guys (Mario, Jorge and Hiram) were outside bar-be-cuing. When Maggie told me to taste the potatoes, I bit down with the side I’d gotten the fillings done in and I got this pang of pain. It was horrible. I almost screamed. I knew at that moment I had to get the darn tooth fixed again. Maggie made Margaritas and with every sip I’d take, I’d get this throbbing pain. I think that’s what pissed me off the most …I couldn’t enjoy my drink!

We ate and teased Jorge about his beef-jerky-esque fajitas LOL. They were almost burned to a crisp. But everything was still really good. We all joked around and made fun of eachother–as always–and then it was wives against husbands again and we somehow brought up “the past” and ended up throwing things in the husbands’ faces. Mario and I appologized to eachother, but I still felt incredibly bad for bringing up something so stupid. I made up for it in the morning though, buahahaha

Mario left to work this morning and then the boys and I and Yazmin chilled out here while Mary ran some errands. When she got back, we picked up Yadira and went back to Progresso (Mexico) to go to the dentist. It was horrible this time . Yazmin and Yadira went in with me and held my hands while the dentist removed the filling he just put in 2 weeks ago. (Poor Mary stayed in the lobby watching my monsters children.) Everytime he’d get near that one tooth, I’d jerk my head back. I kept sliding away from him and he kept telling me to “come back” LOL. I ended up getting an X-ray and even getting a 2nd opinion from the other dentist. They couldn’t figure out what’s wrong. They gave me antibiotics and two different pain meds to help. While I was standing holding Yadira’s hand when it was her turn, the side of my face was throbbing and I even started getting an ear ache and head ache. I almost cried. When he checked me again, he blew air into my mouth and turns out I have to get yet another tooth filled—the same tooth I told him to fill THE LAST TIME I WENT!! I went specifically for THAT tooth to get re-filled (the filling fell out), but he didn’t even do it. He did 2 on top, not 3 as we thought. He put in a temporary filling (that tastes like minty crap!) and I have to wait two weeks to confirm whether I’ll need a ROOT CANAL ($150) or not. I’m also going to definetly need to get all 4 wisdom teeth ($50 per tooth) removed (I already knew that), but most importantly the wisdom tooth on the top right. Ugh. I’m not looking foward to it. I’m petrified actually. But, I drank an Icee without screaming or flinching in pain today! So that’s progress, I hope *crosses fingers*.

Yadira was so scared to get injected with the novacaine, poor thing. I’m a total chicken when it comes to needles, and I could stand it so I kept assuring her it wouldn’t be so bad. She even teared up. Once she got the shot though, she was fine. They ended up filling 4 of her teeth, and it came out to $160!! I asked the guy (dentist) how many he did for me and he said he couldn’t remember how many teeth he filled, supposedly. I thought he did 3, but he didn’t. I think he did 2 and charged me $35. Even if he did one, it’s $5 less than what he charged Yadira per tooth; he charged her $40 each. Mary’s going to call on Monday and ask what happened. I didn’t have to pay anything at all, not even the X-ray, since it was a sort of follow-up. Ugh. I can’t believe my teeth got this bad. And I brush morning and night! I don’t get it ! It must be all the darn sweets I eat. I am going to make it a point to teach these kids about how important teeth are. You only get two sets, dammit. I still have, like, the whole left side to get worked on and 2 teeth on my right. Lovely.

Poor Mario got home all frustrated tonight. They’re making him go into work again tomorrow. I was so looking foward to spending the day with him. At least it’s a short day?

Okay, gonna go to bed. My darn head hurts.

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