Category: Grr

Thank you to all who’ve prayed/wished Eenan a quick recovery . It really, truly means a lot.

Thank you to those who voted for my Trick-or-treat patches at the Qbee. My creepy bear one was a Bee’s Favorite and my slime-filled cauldron with eyeballs and candy corn got a ‘Best Treat’ prize. Also, many thanks to those who voted for my Member Patch Revamp patches…one of them got a prize for getting 10-13 votes. So, thank you everyone!!

I’ve been an emotional mess today. I was okay in the morning. Got up, got Eenan ready, got myself and Jaylen ready and I took him to school. Came back home, made breakfast for Jaylen and I, stuck Mario’s shirt in to wash then dry, woke Mario up and made him breakfast, packed his lunch, ironed his shirt and we hugged/kissed goodbye and he left for work. That’s my typical morning. Jaylen was in a really good mood and was playing contently so I came online and caught up with a few things. (I’m still not done converting the rest of the pages. About 50% of the site is still un-converted. Great!) Jaylen fell asleep around noonish and I picked stuff up off the floor and watched some TV, then when he woke up I got our lunch ready, cleaned up some more, made about 15 lego houses and robots that he continuously broke apart, then got him re-dressed (he’d totally naked-ed himself except for his diaper) since Tommy would be picking us up when Eenan got out of school to drop us off for his X-ray appointment. At 3:40, they got here and we left. Eenan fell asleep on the way over and when we got there he was extremely moody. He screamed his head off and said he didn’t want to go to the doctor again (the X-ray place was right next door to Dr. Z’s office) because they take forever. When I opened the door to pull him out, he threw himself out and RAN ACROSS THE PARKING LOT! I quickly thanked Tommy for dropping us off and dragged Jaylen along with me to grab Eenan. We were SO lucky a car or truck wasn’t coming. I don’t even want to THINK about what could have happened. I already lectured him about not crossing streets/parking lots without holding an adult’s hand and how something really awful could have happened today, just because he decided to throw a tantrum. He scared the crap out of me .

We weren’t at the appointment long. We were in and out in less than 20 minutes. The tech was really nice and was making the kids laugh. He even gave them stickers! They didn’t do that at the other place. When we got out, Mary was already waiting for us. She made a few stops, picked up Happy Meals for the boys and then we ate at home. I helped Eenan with his homework when he was done, gave him his medicines, set the crock-pot for Mario’s lunch tomorrow and took Jaylen with me to the store to get some milk and eggs. Eenan was playing Halo 2 since I promised him he could if he was good, and I gave him his nebulizer treatment while he played. I washed dishes, then told him to stop playing and that’s where the tantrum began. I already knew he’d throw a fit. He turns the game off, then tells me he wanted a new mom. Excuse me?? I don’t know what it was…being tired from running around all day, or just hearing my son say that to me, I don’t know…but I just started bawling and told him to go to his room. He starts crying saying, “I’m sorry, Mom!! I don’t want a new Mom! I want YOU! Oh no! You’re crying! Don’t cry Mom!!” Which made me bawl even more. I made myself stop crying and told him he hurt my feelings. He quickly appologized, ran to the bathroom to get me some toilet paper and wrapped himself around me and we just sobbed together for a little bit. I told him I loved him and he told me and we hugged and he went off to play. He came back a few minutes later and again told me he loved me and didn’t want a new mom. Poor thing. I must have scared him when he saw me crying. I know I overreacted, but I was just so exhausted, then hearing him say that, I broke down. I need to get over this! This…I don’t know what it is. This hormonalness? I cried again when Mario called and told me he didn’t have Friday off afterall. I cried over that. I bathed the boys and made Mario a quick dinner. He went to feed Rick’s animals because they’re on vacation for 3 weeks! The boys are about to brush their teeth, then I’ll read them a story and off to bed they go. Then, maybe, just maybe, I can rest.

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Went to drop John off a while after I posted my entry on Sunday. Didn’t get to see Mom because she was already at work . Don’t remember what else we did but we left the boys with Mary and Big Mario in the evening because they were being absolute terrors and then went grocery shopping. Came home and watched The Green Mile, which we’d borrowed from Sonia. I’d never watched that movie. It was really good…extremely sad, and LONG.

At around 11pm Mario was going to leave to play Halo 2 at Jorge’s and I kind of lost it. I was so frustrated from being home with the kids–doing nothing but cleaning, worrying about Eenan being sick, and just bored from being alone. I knew when he started working again that I’d be spending a lot of time alone with just the kids, but it bugged me that even after he got out of work that he’d go off with the guys. Every night. I’m usually really “whatever” about when he goes “out”, because I know he works his ass off and he deserves time to himself to have fun, but I’d like some time with him too. I was also pissed because it was passed 11 and he made me stay up watching the movie with him, just to have him up and leave. I usually go to bed by 11 since I wake up early and take Eenan to school and I was dead tired. We got into a little argument, he left, and then came back a few minutes later. We didn’t talk about it, we just sat in silence and watched the movie, got ready for bed and went to bed. I appologized for the things I said, but I asked him to try and understand where I’m coming from. It’s gonna take some getting used to…getting used to him not being here and being insanely bored all the time…again .

The next day I got a call from a nurse at Eenan’s doctor’s office. They wanted us to go in because the Dr. wanted to see him. I told them they’d have to wait till he got out of school…he’d already missed too much. So when Eenan got home from school, Noey took us to the doctor’s office. I’d never seen so many people there and was quickly becoming annoyed from having to wait so long just to get the X-ray and urine test results. After 2 hours they finally let us in. The X-ray showed that Eenan has pnuemonia in his right lung . Dr. Z was really surprised that the sedimentation or something like that was at 85 first, and then after the 2nd blood test, it was at 91, when it should be from 0-15. That just shows there’s an infection in the body. She was even more surprised that he wasn’t getting fevers anymore with those high numbers. She told me to just keep giving him his Nebulizer treatments and giving him his medicine as we have been. He needs to get another chest X-ray done tomorrow, has an optometrist appointment on Thursday, then an appointment with Dr. Z on Friday. I already spoke to Ms. Ortiz about it, and she’s been really understanding about him missing half days. I asked if he had any make-up work to do but she said ‘Nah, he’s doing fine.’ Oh, I hope he gets better soon. He doesn’t look or act sick, but just knowing he is in the slightest drives me crazy. I can’t stand it when they’re sick. I’m praying his X-ray comes out clear, or that he’s at least getting better.

Mom called today and told me she got the day off from work because her eye is swollen. She borrowed a Clinique eye cream from Aunt Nora and she seems to have gotten an alergic reaction. She has a doctor’s appointment, but it’s not till Thursday. I hope it’s nothing serious. Aunt Nora said it looks like it may just be Pink Eye.

Going to cut this short. Thought I finally had a few minutes to myself but Jaylen’s crawling all over me trying to get on my lap because he’s sleepy. I just want 5 minutes to myself .

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I’m deaf in my left ear right now. I caught Eenan’s cold around Friday night and have felt like crap ever since. I don’t understand how I can get sick all the darn time if I drink juice at least once a day (the apple juice we drink has 125% vitamin C!), I exercise and take vitamins and I still manage to have the weakest immune system on the planet. I need to be healthy to take care of my kids, my husband, my pets and my house! I can’t afford to be sick at all, dammit. I have the worst cough…that’s how my ear blew out and I’m SO scared because that’s how Mom lost her hearing in both ears. One year she had a really bad cough–so bad, that she lost partial hearing in one ear and almost completely lost her hearing in the other. I can’t imagine, and don’t want to imagine, what it would be like to be hearing impaired. Mom has such a hard time with it. I feel like I’m getting a fever and my whole body aches to boot. Okay, I’ll stop whining .

I don’t remember much from Thursday, the day after I last posted. I know I spent a good chunk of the day cleaning and sorting stuff for the garage sale. We went to Aunt Nora’s for a while to visit her and Mom and John.

On Friday, we woke up at the time we usually do to get Eenan ready for school, which was a bad idea. We dropped him off, hung up the signs for the garage sale, and realized we were going to be starting late. Really late. Aunt Nora didn’t even get there till around 8:30 and we were supposed to have everything ready by 7. We hadn’t even brought Mom’s things out when people were arriving! I ended up taking them over to the apartment next door for them to look at stuff instead of lugging it all over here. It was sort of a bad idea, since some ladies were super careless and were breaking shit. A group of ladies (that came the last time we had a garage sale) bought a whole bunch of stuff…but only because we were selling things for a quarter and for a dollar and they were STILL trying to jack stuff! Can you beleive that?? They saw some little ornaments Mom had on the kitchen counter and thought they’d be sneaky and pass them to eachother hand-in-hand but I saw them. When they were walking out I said, “You gonna pay for that?”. They acted like they had no idea what I was talking about and pointed to the little ornaments. They were like, “Oh! Of course!” Grrr.

We did good that day. It was nice and breezy and it was fun sitting out there with Aunt Nora and talking. She was cracking up with Jaylen. Tio Arturo stopped by and took Aunt Nora to lunch, and they saved us and brought some back for us, which was so nice. They ended up leaving at around 3:30 since they had a Cher concert to catch that night . Mom made around $50 and we made around $50 so that was pretty cool, considering how damn cheap we were selling everything. But we did want to get rid of all the stuff so it worked out. John came over that day after school since he was going to spend the weekend with us. When we were cleaning up I get a really serious call from Jorge, who was looking for Mario. I told him Mario had gone somewhere but I’d tell him to call him back. Jorge said the boss wanted to talk to him. My heart sank and I felt lightheaded. Did I hear correctly? Could my husband possibly be getting a job?? The job he’s wanted forever?

Mario got there and between squeals and jumping up and down I told him to call Jorge. He did and Mario said he needed to freshen up and go talk to the boss. He’d be starting the next morning at 11am. I couldn’t believe it, but I was so happy. Especially for Mario who wanted this so badly and heck, we needed it so badly!

Mary picked Mom up since Aunt Nora and Tio were getting ready for the concert, so she spent a little time there too and I gave her her moola. Then Mario and Mary would drop her off at home and then go to Sears to pick up some tools Mario would need. He was all smiles. He was SUPER excited. I hope everything goes well. After everything we’ve been through the past year, I hope this is our chance to be happy for a good long while, and hopefully not have everything ripped away from us as it’s happened twice before. I hope, hope, hope everything goes well!

Saturday, Aunt Nora didn’t come to the garage sale. She told me she was super tired (don’t blame her) and that I could sell her stuff and keep the money. I asked her about 3 times if she was sure and she said yes. Mario picked up McDonald’s for us in the morning and then he left to work *squeal*. I missed him instantly. I had John out there with me most of the day, since I felt lonely. Mary ended up taking Eenan to the doctor since he was still feeling sick and now had a fever, so I just stayed with Jaylen. We were chased around by bees all darn day long! When the garage sale was over, I was so relieved! We took the remainder of the stuff to Mario’s Grandma’s house and then came home. Mary asked if we wanted to watch Shrek 2 with her so the boys and I went over. Big Mario got home…he shot a deer and it was barely the first day of Deer Season! Then Mario got home and told me about his day. He loved it !

The next day, Mary, Jaylen and I woke up early and went to the big flea market/garage sale. Eenan slept in with John and Mario. I bought a few Hot Wheels for Mario that I know he didn’t have to add to his birthday present and got the kids a few things (dinosaurs for both and a Swift Heart Rabbit for Eenan). I was kinda disappointed that I didn’t find too many things, but relieved at the same time since I still felt guilty for how much I spent the last time . I found a Raspberry Tart doll, baseball Popple, a really cute Rainbow Brite sleeping bag, Care Bear sleeping bag and Strawberry Shortcake twin flat sheet. In all, I spent only $15!! I was so happy with my purchases and proud of myself for putting the rest of the sheets/sleeping bags down LOL. Here’s a pic of them. I put up a bigger pic of the SBSC one in the SBSC page and will be adding the other ones soon.

I cut John’s hair later and spent the rest of that day and Monday cleaning. I’ve been sick as a dog, but I’ve been cleaning and it sucks. Monday morning I drove Eenan to school by myself for the first time ever. I’ve driven him before, but Mario was always in the passenger seat. I decided to let him sleep in more since he was going to work and bravely drove my child to school. I left his Motrin with the nurse and instructed her as to when his next dosage was and what his symptoms were. When Sonia picked him up after school and got the medicine from the nurse, the nurse gushed about how adorable he was. He said, “Mmmm! I LOVE Motrin! I love the orange flavor!” And took it with no problem. He knows he needs to take two teaspoons so when he swallowed that one he said, “More please!” LOL. He’s so cooperative. Well, at school he is LOL.

We decided we’ll be taking Eenan to the doctor again tomorrow. He still has a fever, even though it’s not as bad as it was, but it’s still lingering. He’s got to have an infection somewhere and the doctor didn’t prescribe antibiotics. Since Mary took him on Saturday, the pediatrician we go to was closed so she took him to a clinic. The same clinic that told us Jaylen’s foot was fine and just to “keep an eye on it” when he was first diagnosed with MRSA. Bastards. I told Mary we need to take him to his “real” doctor. Heaven forbid he have Strep :(.

I’m heading to bed. I’ve got horrible chills now and my fever’s in full swing. Already started on antibiotics…just hope they kick in sooner than later .

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