Category: Memories

Today started out…not so good. After the very sweet and touching entry I wrote about how loving my husband is, we got into a fight. I won’t go into details, but I ended up smacking him with a handful of the pretty flowers he got me. Yeah, it got that bad. A lot of the flowers survived though, heh. I still feel bad I took it out on the flowers .

Anyway, I was pissed at him most of the day and he kept trying to make peace, but I wasn’t having it. I was just that mad. Eventually, I eased up a bit and we started talking. We left around 1:30 to pick up money from Mom to pay for her storage unit. Then we got some drinks and drove to the school where I had my appointment at 2:30.

The appointment went well. Things happened so fast–I started thinking, “What did I get myself into??”. I officially start school on July 26th. I’ll be attending classes for 9 months from 8am to 12pm. I should graduate April 2006. I hope everything works out. Since it’s a private school and “basics” aren’t required, we’re going to be paying a lot out of our own pocket, but Mario assures me we can do it. I don’t think I would have gone through with it if he didn’t keep reassuring me that things would be okay. One of the perks is that I get a Blackberry LOL. It makes me nervous just *thinking* about having to drive through heavy traffic over there though. Tonight, Mario, John, Noelia, Jaylen and I (Eenan was with Mary, as always) went to the mall. I drove. I can now say that yes, I LOATHE getting off at that exit and quickly turning into the mall. People are so damn aggressive when they’re driving!

Tomorrow, I have so many calls to make. We have to figure out who’s going to be watching the kids for us while Mario’s at work and while I’m at school, which is most likely going to be Mom. We need to figure out how to pay her and all that. I also have to reschedule an appointment I missed and I have to call and check if my scholarship’s still good (it’s only $500, but hey, it’s something right?). John has a physical at 11am for his insurance, then at 12:30 we’re going to go pick up Mario’s paycheck at work and deposit for him. I’m nervous about that since it’s in a very busy part of town and it’s going to be during lunch…oy.

At 2, I have my appointment to sign the rest of the papers and all that junk at the school. I’m still in disbelief that I just jumped into this. I didn’t think I’d start this soon! I was really excited about it, but now I’m just really scared. What if we can’t do it financially?? We’ve got so many bills to pay this paycheck…it’s a bit overwhelming. Mario also needs to get the Prelude fixed so I can keep the Sentra for school. Ugh…I hope everything works out and falls into place. I’ve got such mixed feelings about this now!

*breathes* I can do this. We can do this.

As for Mario’s jaw…he’s got a strained ligament. He’s on meds for the swelling and pain and is only allowed to eat foods he can “slurp” basically. Poor dude.

Gonna go finish filling out my Financial Aide papers. I have a headache.

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Does anyone know any good recipes for a copycat version of the Starbucks Caramel Frappuccino? I just tried one out that I found online and eeewww!

Anyway, things with the neighbors seem to be pretty…calm. The guy must be in jail and the girl I only see at night for some reason. I don’t think anyone’s at the apartment at all during the day, or it could just be I pay attention at night? On our way home from Yadira’s last night, we saw her, her mom and brother (?) strolling down the main street, and it was like 10:30pm, which I thought was pretty weird. I’m just glad things are back to normal and I hope it stays that way.

We didn’t do much at all on Saturday, till the evening. Jorge actually invited us over . Mario picked up a 24 pack of Bug Light, as a peace offering, I suppose. Eenan slept over at Mary’s and Jaylen and John went with us. Hiram was already there (he has a key to their house, don’tcha know??) and I think it was pretty damn uncomfortable for him to have us there. Aww…too bad! The reason we don’t go over there anymore is because of him, plain and simple. He has something against Mario and we have no idea what it is. At one point, Jorge, Mario, Hiram, & Joe (their neighbor) went to check something out at Joe’s house across the street and I asked Maggie, “Does Hiram talk shit about us when he’s here?”. She looked kinda shocked at the question, and almost like she didn’t want to answer. She basically said that yes, he has said some stuff, but that she didn’t think he had anything against us. I told her he’d been acting that way since we went to Albert’s birthday party. I also told her the reason we hadn’t gone over since that last time (March 1st!) was because of him and that whole night, Jorge was bitching about how he didn’t want to bar-be-cue. I told her how shitty I thought it was that Jorge and Mario have been friends forever and for some moron to come in and ruin that friendship–it’s stupid. It’s stupid that JORGE is letting their friendship slip away like that.

Right after mentioning that, the guys got back and she talked about how she wanted to go to the beach for her birthday. I said Mario wouldn’t get the day off (sarcastically, so Jorge would get the point and maybe give him the day off) and the first thing SHE says is, “We gotta get Hiram the day off so he can go.” Grr. Maybe it’s not so bad that we don’t talk to them much anymore?

John had two beers that night, which is a lot for him since he doesn’t drink beer. Needless to say, John felt like absolute crap the next morning LOL.

Maggie made a drink with beer, and OMG that shit tastes foul. I don’t know how she can just chug that stuff !

Sunday I woke up to a moody Mario who quickly ruined my morning. I was so pissed and upset that I made a private journal and just vented until I could vent no more. Still deciding whether I want to give that password out, though. I really need to install WordPress, or some kind of blogging software that has password protected entries.

Anyway, he was going to check his cousin’s system and asked if I wanted to go. Even though I was pissed at him, I decided to go since I didn’t want to be home. The boys stayed with Mary and Big Mario and splashed in their kiddie pool.

We got to Mario’s aunt and uncle’s house and I actually had a good time. Mario was out with his cousin, fixing the truck and I was inside with his aunt, talking about computers, Roadrunner, spyware and downloading. She was shocked that Mario and I knew so much about computers LOL. She was so surprised, she called us outside to tell her son what we knew, because she said, “According to him, he’s the only one who knows about that stuff” LOL. We also spoke about how I can take the basic college courses online and where I can take the THEA (the new TASP). I’m SO not looking foward to taking that. Even John said it sucks. I don’t remember ZIP about math and I know for certain I’ll have to take all the remedial maths. Blah. Just what I need, to be in school forever just so I can get a job as an administrative assistant.

After having lunch and hanging out a bit more with his aunt and uncle, we came home and later went to a movie. Eenan of course didn’t want to watch The Pacifier, so he stayed with Mary. It was a cute movie. Jaylen was super sleepy when we got there, so he was getting fussy. He kept throwing tantrums about how he wanted Scooby Snacks (we’d already gotten him a movie meal, which has candy in it and a pickle) and thew himself on the floor. When the movie actually started he was in a pretty good mood, thank the Lord. He ended up falling asleep halfway through, as usual. I was pretty disappointed we didn’t get to see Gramma again this weekend . That’s almost 4 weeks, I think, that I haven’t seen her!

I’ve been thinking a lot about the future, more than usual; about school, about what I even want to go for as a major, what kind of job I’ll have, will we make good money, when we’ll finally get a house, when/if we have another child??? Thinking about having another child in the future got me thinking about how my pregnancy with Jaylen was tough, which had me thinking, “What if the next one’s tough, too? Or what if it’s worse??”

I had a dream that night, a weird dream. I was 6 months pregnant and I had this strange, gurgling pain on my right side near my rib cage. Somehow, I had this pore, or some kind of “hole” where I had the pain and the baby was born through that hole! The umblicial cord was hanging out and everything–weirdest thing, ever. Anyway, SHE was perfectly healthy, looked exactly like Eenan did as a baby, with curly hair, and was perfectly fine for being born 3 months early. I took it as a sign that maybe, if I do ever get pregnant again, I’ll have a girl (heh!) and that my pregnancy will be okay?

Jose, Elda, and the boys got here around 10am yesterday. They’ve officially started their new lives in Texas . I ran a few errands in the afternoon (wasted 30 minutes of my life at the Department of Human Services, where I had to set up an appointment for mom, only to have the evil receptionist tell me since she moved, she needed to go to a new office. Grr!)

We spent the day at Mary’s, just talking. Later in the evening, Mary and I took the boys to their swimming lessons (I took video with my Kodak easyshare this time!) and then we all got together at Yadira’s, ate dinner, and talked, made jokes and were just loud LOL! Yadira realized that our children will all be very loud also–we could hear them scream-talking to eachother across the house . Mario got there after work, we chilled out a bit more and then we came home. I was super tired and STILL had to do chores I didn’t get a chance to do during the day.

Today, I’m hoping to take John for a drive (Mario figured out how to make the darn car work…we have to move the key foward, wait for a “click”, and then we can start the engine–dumb thing.). I also want to take the kids to the library, IF Jaylen ever wakes up LOL.

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I hadn’t looked out the windows when I woke up, which was at 8:10am, but while I was making breakfast, which was at 9am, I noticed it was eerily dark out. Sure enough, thunder started rolling and rain started pouring down. Shortly after, the darn electricity went out, but only for a few seconds. Still, it was enough to knock the satellite out and the kids were terrified and bored (that is why I didn’t want Dish Network!). I put a DVD on for them (The Land Before Time, Invasion of the Tinysauruses) and I sat there, eating breakfast, bored. So, I turned the computer on and crossed my fingers that the power wouldn’t go out again. I hope it’s over now and I hope Mario got to work safely, too.

The boys’ lessons went well last night, for the most part. Eenan’s doing wonderfully; he can float on his back, is learning to kick while holding on to the wall, and is learning to pass himself around the pool–even the deep sides–so he can gain strength on his arms. Jaylen, on the other hand, was driving his coaches crazy LOL. The same coach that taught him on Monday, Jorge, was teaching him last night. Michael, Mario’s friend, wanted Jorge to teach both Eenan and Jaylen, since Eenan’s coach had another class with about 4 older kids. Jaylen wasn’t having it though. Jorge was teaching them to grip the wall and kick, and Jaylen wanted to be out “swimming” on the deep side and kept trying to get away. He refused to blow bubbles and kick, so Michael ended up taking Jaylen instead, and worked with him a little. Hopefully today will be a better day though. They’re sleeping very well at night since they’re so tired from all the swimming LOL.

I made hotdogs last night, since Mario had said he wanted some the night before. I’m not too fond of hotdogs, but had actually been craving one, so I had one. I don’t know if it was the hotdog or the sun that did it to me but I ended up getting really nauseous and then got a migraine. I felt horrible. I still had to wash dishes before I went to bed, so I recruited John to help me rinse. He complained the whole first half of the time we were washing dishes, then started making jokes. I kept laughing, which made my head pound even more, which made me get into a bad mood. Then, he did one of the things that bugs me to no end–he splashed water on my face. Something in me snapped. I gasp, turn to him and lay a smack on his face–soapy water and all. I kind of stood there with my mouth open like, “What the hell am I doing??”, and seeing the shocked expression on his soap-suddy face made me crack up laughing. It was kind of like when a Pimp smacks his “hos” with a baby-powder-smothered hand? Yeah, like that . He said I smacked him so fast he didn’t have a chance to react. We both laughed the whole time after that, and he kept saying, “Don’t Hulk out one me” LOL.

Later, when we were done with the dishes he asks, “Have you ever just smacked Mario like that for splashing water in your face?” I reply, “Yeah, but on the arm. He knows I hate that and does it anyway. But I’ve never smacked him on the face!!” We’ll be talking about this for weeks to come LOL.

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