Uneasiness and Tangents

Did I even spell that title correctly? Hmm…anyway. I’m all alone with my thoughts; for the past few hours. Jorge is working (yes, this late) and the kids aren’t here this weekend 🙁 but they’d probably be asleep by now anyway if they were. Briana, Mia, Joyce and the kids were here earlier, but they’ve since gone home 🙁 . My dinner ended up being an iced coffee from Starbucks, where I picked up a gift card earlier.

Anyway, we caught up and talked and I learned some annoying shit that’s happened recently, but it’s not my place to say anything about it. And I hate it. Because I want to scream and tell people off and just be a total bitch about these things I have no control over. The anger’s been festering in my gut for the past few hours that I feel nauseous and hungry all at the same time. I was going to get up and make an anger-filled chocolate mug cake, but I felt too lazy to. And then I thought I’d get a Carb Smart ice cream pop thing but that also required getting up from this chair and nah. But I also don’t feel hungry, which is progress for me in hindsight, since I would have devoured an entire box of Carb Smart in the past. Yay me.

I tried finishing my Calaca wreath but wasn’t into it. I started laundry, but haven’t put it in the dryer yet. I started browsing though job postings since I received an e-mail and I have A.D.D. but everything sucks. Started looking for that stupid book I need to study because my brain has forgotten everything it learned all these years (HOW was I valedictorian and salutatorian, HOW??), but I got distracted again and said, “Hmm, I haven’t blogged in a while…” 🙄

Can you believe I feel guilty for feeling angry? That’s what’s wrong with me: I can never just be MAD. I feel guilty and ungrateful for being angry. I had a great day of shopping (that’s what happens when Jorge leaves me alone too long) and not even that helped. Well, it did for a little bit, heh.

I used up coupons left and right and managed to find a black dress at Old Navy for our Annual Banquet. It was comfy and I liked it at the store, but in no way, shape, or form is it “cocktail attire”. Then I saw this other dress online just a while ago, but I’m sure it’s about $75 and I’m NOT paying that for a dress I’ll wear one time.

I also finally found my mustard-colored cardigan. I was really hoping to find one at Goodwill, or eBay, but no luck. So I paid $10 for a legit new one 😆 . Now I need to fix that blouse with the foxes on it that I absolutely had to have a mustard-colored cardigan for. I bought it in medium in March and now it’s huge. I literally wore it once. One of the negatives of dropping 2 sizes 😕 .

Which is why I’m scouring Goodwill and clearance racks for pants. All of my jeans, shorts and work pants are cinched at the waist with safety pins since losing weight, and it looks pretty bad because it clumps under my blouses. I got lucky last month when I found 2 red pants (one brand-new from Old Navy and brand-new Calvin Klein ones, both with tags). This month I found a denim jacket (in extra small, WHAT), 2 dresses (one from Gap with tags) and a cute sweater from Aeropostale. I think I spent $10 or less on all that!

Here’s one of the dresses and the jacket:

(Yes, my cats are indeed enormous!)

I realized today as Mom and I walked to the car from visiting Gramma that my thighs 100% don’t rub when I walk in a dress anymore! That’s a darn non-scale victory in itself! Oh! And I tried on pants at Kohl’s (I had Kohl’s cash, woo!), and I fit into a SIZE. 3. THREE. Tres. I haven’t been size 3 since I was 17!!! And I have a post all about my 5-month Keto experience and progress, but obviously I never finished it, but I seriously weigh the lowest as an adult, EVER. I seriously love Keto, no joke.

Ok. I should go check on the darn laundry. Or pay bills online. Or you know, wash my face, brush my teeth and go to bed? Meh.

Santa Fe Wine Classic 2017

As always, Gerry and her Committee outdid themselves!

This year, the Wine Classic was “Old Hollywood” themed, and as always, I was a nervous wreck about my outfit. I searched two different Goodwills hoping I’d find a good dress to fix up like I did last year, but no luck (instead I found a ton of amazing vinyls!). Jorge took action, measured me, and had Dinah order a dress for me on her Amazon Prime account–which he would reimburse her for. She ended up getting it for me herself, plus a petticoat! It was perfect, and very Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany’s, which I was going for. It was modern enough that–in case I ended up being the only one to dress up–it wouldn’t be too alarming 😆 !

I did some shopping for work on Thursday morning, and ended up finding the perfect earrings, necklace and tiara. I had some shoes to go with it, but they killed my feet immediately, so I ended up wearing my good old speckled wedges, which Gerry said would complement the dress.

I was posted in the Auction Room, and although I didn’t get much time to get out and wander, I got a few photos:

It looked so much prettier at night!
Look at this beautiful photo by my friend Gabriel!!

The Oscar

Wine selection in the Silent Auction Room

The cheese spread!
The meats!
The desserts!

I have to admit: I had a tiny brownie, a tiny cheesecake and a chocolate-covered strawberry. And I have no regrets!

A few auction items (love Mr. Clark’s paintings!)
Santa Fe Steakhouse setting up
My plate from Santa Fe Steakhouse! Tried keeping it Keto but that corn was amazing!
The only thing I got to try from SALT :(. But it was delicious!! A port wine lollipop!
The 3 Audrey’s!

Of course I’d look shiny AF the second I step out into the night’s humidity -_-. And although my feet ached, I had a fabulous time!