I did indeed spend all of Friday pissed at Mario. He got home at 10 (not 2, as I’d assumed) that night, but I pretended I didn’t hear him get home. I was already half-asleep in bed with Jaylen (Eenan was watching Cartoon Network in the living room with John) and since I’d been reading all evening I was quickly becoming sleepy. I was civilized but still angry the next morning and even made a few sarcastic comments throughout breakfast that he quietly ignored.

I, uh, got a copy of Microsoft Office XP (which isn’t 2003, but it works) and worked on my Power Point presentation all day until I got it done. I’m actually pretty proud of it (and Mario saying it was interesting to him made me even happier with it). I tried forgetting about the day before since I was going to an engagement party with Mary and didn’t want to be in a bad mood. We didn’t stay long, since we were going to a mass dedicated to Anthony (Buddy) afterwards, but the time we spent there was nice. John stayed with the boys so we had a nice, relaxing time. We had some cream cheese loaf that had jalapeño and ham pressed on the outside–it was delicious. We had tiny, triangle-shaped sandwiches, too. The roast beef ones were to die for. I even tried wine, White Merlot, for the first time ever, and I have to admit I didn’t like it at all. If all wine tastes like that, there goes my little fantasy of eating at an expensive restaurant with Mario and feeling all fancy with my wine glass. I wonder what champagne tastes like?

We met with Annie here at the house when we came home to pick Jaylen up (Eenan didn’t want to shower so he decided not to go) and then went to church. Jaylen was actually quite pleasant the first half hour since he was drawing on a little pad of paper, but after that–oh Lordy. He kept trying to run into the isle and kept talking exaggeratingly loud since everyone was so quiet. I was asking God to forgive me for having ill thoughts toward my child–that boy had me muttering profanities left and right. I was holding on to his arm trying to get him to sit still and he got loose! He screamed, “I’M FREEEE!”, and promptly ran down the isle. Mary and I quickly got up and took him outside. He was very silent and looking left and right since it was so dark out and we were telling him the Ware (Were?) Rabbit was out looking for little boys who didn’t behave in church.

When Mario got here we talked outside and were just fine until I brought up the whole “you’re-never-here” thing. He actually listened this time, though. We talked about everything and I just let it all out and I feel much better now. I just hope it stays this way and I really hope he makes the effort to spend time with us at least once in a while.

We had menudo at Mary’s today and then she treated us all to the movies. Mario and I watched Four Brothers (which was really, really good) and the kids and Mary watched Sky High. We grabbed some pizza afterwards, looked around Kohl’s (we finally have one here!), and then picked Mom up from work. This is the week she’ll be staying with us while Aunt Nora and Tio Arturo are in Las Vegas.

The children are rebelling again (they refuse to clean up the mess in the bedroom) and I need to do more laundry so I think this’ll do for now.

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After getting my computer fixed my internet died for 2 days so I never got a chance to update. My cold only lasted 3 days–shortest cold I’ve ever had, ever. I felt absolutely horrible on Monday but went to school anyway just in case Mrs. C-R decided to surprise us with our exam on that day. All we did was spend the day studying. I studied that night, then at breakfast and then for an hour before our exam. Needless to say, I aced the biatch with a 100. *pops collar* We got to leave at 9:30–earliest we’ve ever left!

Wednesday we started our new course: Power Point. Mrs. C-R gave us a brief overview, showed us the do’s and don’t’s of presenting and tossed us in front of a presentation and we had to present it to the class–just like that. I did alright.

That same day we were put into groups for a group presentation. I was grouped with Romeo and Miguel and our presentation was based on weather and natural disasters. I researched and made the slides for Global Warming and Earthquakes.

I picked Mom up from the SS office on Wednesday after school. Good news: they’re going to help her! Someone is finally going to help my mother and I couldn’t be happier . I’m praying and crossing my fingers that things work out.

Mario got home early that night (for once!) and we started watching the first season of Desperate Housewives. Since we watched the show and then, uh, rendevouzed in the shower (it was the only place we could be alone!) I didn’t get to bed till almost 12. At 1 a.m., I woke up with the worst stomach cramps and then got the chills. I couldn’t sleep. It was the strangest–I felt fine the next day, but all night I was thinking, “Please don’t let me be sick. I have my presentation tomorrow and I’d hate to disappoint my group.” I felt really tired when I woke up that morning and even debated staying home, but I made myself go.

On Thursday, we finished up our slides and went first. We did pretty darn good. I didn’t even get nervous .

I had an appointment to donate blood after school, and Ricci was going to donate too, so we grabbed a quick lunch at Taco Bell and went to the United Blood Services office. My iron was really good, so the nurse kept trying to convince me to get the Plasma/Red Blood Cell thing done, so I did. It took forever. I did really good even though the needle hurt my arm like crazy, but when I was done I started feeling really light headed and sleepy. The nurse asked me to keep my eyes open just in case I passed out. Ricci had to stop half-way through hers–she was definitely passing out.’

We didn’t get out till 2:20 and Mary had asked me to stuff the turkey we were having for Tommy’s birthday dinner. I was also freaking out since I had to rush to drop Ricci off and then get in line to wait for Eenan at school (it takes 30 minutes to get here and I have to be in line for Eenan at 2:45). I made it a little late to pick Eenan up and called Mary to let her know I wasn’t going to be able to put the turkey in till at least 3:30.

The turkey cooked with enough time, thank goodness, and dinner was awesome. It was like an early Thanksgiving ! Mario didn’t make it, of course.

Speaking of, it’s becoming really hard for me to keep from either moping around or being pissed off about Mario never being home. Before, I knew it was because he *had* to work and was doing everything to provide for us, but lately I know he’s been getting out of work earlier and he just doesn’t bother coming home. He’s too busy with his friends . I’m just…getting sick of it, I guess.

Today, for example, he had the day off. We started on our individual presentations at school (I’m making mine on Care Bears–I really want to change my idea, but the girls convinced me to keep it). I didn’t get to finish so I was going to take my computer in to get Microsoft Office re-installed on my computer (since it got wiped out with everything else…my pictures… *clutches heart*). I didn’t want to go on my own, so I asked him to go with me when he called me after school. He couldn’t because don’t you see he had to take Magda to bail Jorge out of jail (long story). I know I shouldn’t be that way, but my God, wasn’t there anyone ELSE who could take her?? It’s almost 4:30 and he’s STILL there…waiting. And, knowing him, when they finally let Jorge out he’s going to go straight to their house and stay there till 2am.

I was going to make myself feel better by watching Desperate Housewives (ha, the irony), but lo-and-behold, my DVD is scratched or something because it doesn’t want to go passed the 3rd episode on disk 1. Grr.

I found Mary’s copy of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, so I think I’ll go drown my sorrows on the couch with my face in the book. Yeah, that sounds good.

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I spent the whole day yesterday either thrown on the couch or on my bed in a pathetic, boogery heap. I rested as much as I could, drank orange juice and water, and read Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix–when I was conscious of course. John, who’s not much of a reader (and he, himself admits it happily), was in utter shock that I read 250 pages in one day. I could have read more but my eyes kept rolling into the back of my head involuntarily. I felt horrible–the body aches, the runny nose…I just hope I’m better by Tuesday (my final!).

I woke up feeling a tad bit better today. My nose isn’t running and my throat doesn’t hurt (as much), but my ears are stuffed and I’m REALLY dizzy. I didn’t do any chores around the house yesterday (except for making breakfast) and I felt really energized this morning so I ironed Mario’s work clothes, made pancakes and washed the dishes we used during breakfast (John woke up at 4:30 am so he washed last night’s dishes and threw the trash out). Needless to say, by the time I was done, the room would not stop spinning. I still feel kind of dizzy now, but I’m trying not to walk around too much. I still have to do laundry though, and study! I just hope I can stay awake long enough to.

I really hope I feel better by tomorrow . I hate driving when I feel like this.

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